A few mornings ago I awoke depressed. I had been feeling kinda low for a while and was trying to back track my steps to see where I may have tripped myself up. Was I over analyzing things too much, worrying over unnecessary details, exhausting myself with too much over thinking and wearing myself out? YES to all of the above. Well true to ((old)) form, I started to panic. I starting thinking freaking great!! Here I go again...and started to panic. I just KNEW I couldn't go back to where I had once been. So, I decided to go back to bed and sleep these anxious feeling off and see if I could get up to a better start.
While I laid there, I talked to God and what I call my spirit guide. I rambled on with all of the thoughts I had running through my mind and as I listened to my thoughts, I always listen for the answers. The answers from the spirit are so subtle, you mistake then for your own. The more relaxed you become or the groggier you get, the easier these thoughts and answers are heard. I usually have these thoughts/messages from the spirit first thing in the morning before becoming fully awake. You'll recognize them because they are those positive thoughts that talk to your subconscious with all these wonderful thoughts about the day ahead or something exciting that maybe you hadn't thought of on your own. You'll know your conscious mind is talking when you finally awake fully and think, ugh, another day to get through and wonder where those happy thoughts disappeared to.

That morning as I chatted away in my mind, I answered my own questions. Yes you are triggering yourself. It's like friction to a fire that is sure to ignite if you continue to spark that flame. Hello? Was that me thinking? NO, it was my message that I needed to hear.
I was able to awake to a positive day and productive attitude. I have been fine since, but I realize that I too (having been through the anxiety/depression) need to take time out to listen to this inner message more often. They are always positive and always lead me in the direction that I know I need to be headed in.
Hope this helps someone other then myself.
