to tell anyone about this thought. She looks exactly like my husband and sister but doesnt have much of me, though she has my personality. Then i start to think well if she doesnt look like me i might stop loving her. Why? these thoughts? She's 6 yrs old very pretty girl, very happy, loves life and i love her to death. I protect her so much my husband said i spoil her too much. I hate myself for having these ocd thoughts about her. Please Help me if u can. Thanks Noody.....Please Help With this one! Ocd Thought.
Hi I was wondering if anyone can relate or help me with this thought. I went thru the program 2 yrs ago. It helped me tremendously. My anxiety decrease about 80 %. But, I still struggle with scary thoughts at times. Most of the times i use my skills to get rid of them. But again I have this one thought tat scares me the most and wont go away. The thought is about my youngest daughter. My thoughts are: since she doesnt look like me.... What if she's not my daughter.... I am embrassed to tell anyone about this thought. She looks exactly like my husband and sister but doesnt have much of me, though she has my personality. Then i start to think well if she doesnt look like me i might stop loving her. Why? these thoughts? She's 6 yrs old very pretty girl, very happy, loves life and i love her to death. I protect her so much my husband said i spoil her too much. I hate myself for having these ocd thoughts about her. Please Help me if u can. Thanks Noody.....
to tell anyone about this thought. She looks exactly like my husband and sister but doesnt have much of me, though she has my personality. Then i start to think well if she doesnt look like me i might stop loving her. Why? these thoughts? She's 6 yrs old very pretty girl, very happy, loves life and i love her to death. I protect her so much my husband said i spoil her too much. I hate myself for having these ocd thoughts about her. Please Help me if u can. Thanks Noody.....Live, Laugh, and Love Well.
The scary thought is a distraction, but from what? Here's a few possibilities I have:
-Underlying feeling that you're not that emotionally close to her, and may ultimately fail as a mother.
-Underlying disassociation with your husband and family in general, perhaps due to over-focusing on yourself because of anxiety.
-Underlying feelings of inadequacy of your own womanhood and feeling challenged by her femininity.
It may be none of those things and be something more mundane. Whatever the cause, rest assured it's just a distraction and isn't harming her. I can relate to you though: I'm short, brown hair and eyes, accountant by trade, conservative in dress and life, a pragmatic realist. My daughter is tall, blond with lavander blue eyes, flamboyant, animated, and rediculously irreverant (and terrible with numbers!). It happens. I don't question whether she's mine or not, but sometimes I question whether I deserve her.
My OCD thought with my kids is my hypochondria and fear of death. I've pinpointed my fear of death to my fear of being the ultimate bad mother-not there. I realized while I was consumed with my fear of not being there, I was wasting the time I actually am here. Does that make sense?
-Underlying feeling that you're not that emotionally close to her, and may ultimately fail as a mother.
-Underlying disassociation with your husband and family in general, perhaps due to over-focusing on yourself because of anxiety.
-Underlying feelings of inadequacy of your own womanhood and feeling challenged by her femininity.
It may be none of those things and be something more mundane. Whatever the cause, rest assured it's just a distraction and isn't harming her. I can relate to you though: I'm short, brown hair and eyes, accountant by trade, conservative in dress and life, a pragmatic realist. My daughter is tall, blond with lavander blue eyes, flamboyant, animated, and rediculously irreverant (and terrible with numbers!). It happens. I don't question whether she's mine or not, but sometimes I question whether I deserve her.
My OCD thought with my kids is my hypochondria and fear of death. I've pinpointed my fear of death to my fear of being the ultimate bad mother-not there. I realized while I was consumed with my fear of not being there, I was wasting the time I actually am here. Does that make sense?
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Noody and to everyone: This is what helped me with my OCD. I got to the point that because of my severe OCD I had to be admitted into the psych ward. I know my OCD is due to the severe abuse I endured be born into an abusive family which obviously started at a very early age. I'm now dealing with the "fear" of others.The way I look at it. It's like within me is a big ball of rubber bands (representing all the issues i'm dealing with: like fear,anxiety,the sexual abuse, the trauma,etc) and one by one my God-the Lord Jesus Christ is undoing each one. And obviously I have to want Him to and to let Him to. It's been a long road. What also helps me is I watch "Celebrating Life in Recovery" with Cheri Peters on the 3abn channel=3 Angels Broadcasting Network. This too has helped me heal and to go on. I too had such awful OCD concerning my kids-so I definitely know how it is. I'm hoping that this will help you-take care and God Bless you and your beautiful family. Jupiter7
Thursday, July 31, 2008
My Thoughts vs. God's Word
By Melissa Taylor
"The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly." John 10:10 (NKJV)
Do you ever question if you are good enough? I do – I have all my life. Do you dwell more on what's wrong with you than what's right with you? I do that a lot too.
However, one day I realized I was only surveying myself to get those answers. Well, myself with a little help from my enemy, Satan. For a long time I didn't even recognize him for who he was. My negative thoughts and deceitful suggestions just sounded like my own voice.
The Bible opens with the warning of a serpent slithering into the lives of Adam and Eve, filling their heads with lies that separated them from God. They chose to believe the lies. Jesus, too, was tempted by this liar. He was ready though. He knew the Word of God and that was the only weapon He needed to defeat the evil one.
I know I’m not Jesus, but I can strive to be like Him. I find great comfort in knowing He is with me every step of the way. I can also find great comfort knowing I have the same weapon that He had. I have God's Word available to me in the Bible.
When I compared my negative thoughts to God's Word, I was amazed at the differences:
My thoughts tell me to give up.
God's Word tells me to be committed. Matthew 5:33-37
My thoughts tell me “I need it now!”
God's Word tells me to exercise self-control. Galatians 5:23
My thoughts tell me I deserve to come first, be selfish.
God's Word tells me to have humility and put others first. Philippians 2:3-4
My thoughts tell me to get mad and hold a grudge.
God's Word says forgive as many times as it takes. Matthew 18:21-22
My thoughts tell me to seek revenge.
God's Word tells me to be a peacemaker. Romans 12:18-19
My thoughts tell me take all the credit.
God's Word tells me to glorify Jesus Christ. John 17:5
My thoughts tell me I need to look good on the outside and no one will notice the ugly inside. God's Word tells me to be pure on the inside and the outside won't even matter. Proverbs 31:30
My thoughts tell me I'm ugly.
God's Word tells me I'm wonderfully made. Psalm 139:14
My thoughts tell me I'm all alone and no one understands me.
God's Word tells me He will never leave me and He knows the plans He has for me. Deuteronomy 31:6, Jeremiah 29:11
My thoughts tell me that I'm just not good enough.
God's Word tells me that I'm His gift to the world and that I was created in His image. Psalm 127:3, Genesis 1:26
I learned the lies must be replaced with Words that are true. That way, when Satan’s lies slither back into my head, I'm ready and I can defeat the enemy.
I admit this has been a challenge for me. I'm so thankful that: I have friends in place who know I struggle with this to remind me of my true identity; I was brave enough to seek counseling when I needed help; I learned that anxiety and depression were not always my fault and I was open to receive medical attention from a professional in this area; my family, especially my husband, who stood beside me even when I was miserable to be around; and, each time I felt like quitting or giving up, I never did.
I don't want to waste time that God has given me to live with negative thoughts about myself and lies that aren't true. That only keeps me from Him and keeps me from the work He has purposed me for. Evaluate your thoughts. Condemning thoughts are not from God. Renew your mind with the Word of God. Do not allow the enemy to separate you from the love of God and the life that was meant for you.
Dear Lord, Fill me with Your Word so that I can live in freedom. In Jesus' Name, Amen.
Related Resources:
Do You Know Him?
Becoming a Woman Who Listens to God by Sharon Jaynes
Hope in the Midst of Depression: How to Embrace Life Again by Mary Southerland
Visit Melissa’s blog: I Am Beautiful
Application Steps:
Read the verses in this devotion and write down what God's Word says.
Reflections:
Are your thoughts reflective of who you really are?
Do you look at yourself the way God looks at you?
Power Verses:
Philippians 4:8, "Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things." (NIV)
Romans 8:1, "Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus." (NIV)
Noody and to everyone: This is what helped me with my OCD. I got to the point that because of my severe OCD I had to be admitted into the psych ward. I know my OCD is due to the severe abuse I endured be born into an abusive family which obviously started at a very early age. I'm now dealing with the "fear" of others.The way I look at it. It's like within me is a big ball of rubber bands (representing all the issues i'm dealing with: like fear,anxiety,the sexual abuse, the trauma,etc) and one by one my God-the Lord Jesus Christ is undoing each one. And obviously I have to want Him to and to let Him to. It's been a long road. What also helps me is I watch "Celebrating Life in Recovery" with Cheri Peters on the 3abn channel=3 Angels Broadcasting Network. This too has helped me heal and to go on. I too had such awful OCD concerning my kids-so I definitely know how it is. I'm hoping that this will help you-take care and God Bless you and your beautiful family. Jupiter7
Thursday, July 31, 2008
My Thoughts vs. God's Word
By Melissa Taylor
"The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly." John 10:10 (NKJV)
Do you ever question if you are good enough? I do – I have all my life. Do you dwell more on what's wrong with you than what's right with you? I do that a lot too.
However, one day I realized I was only surveying myself to get those answers. Well, myself with a little help from my enemy, Satan. For a long time I didn't even recognize him for who he was. My negative thoughts and deceitful suggestions just sounded like my own voice.
The Bible opens with the warning of a serpent slithering into the lives of Adam and Eve, filling their heads with lies that separated them from God. They chose to believe the lies. Jesus, too, was tempted by this liar. He was ready though. He knew the Word of God and that was the only weapon He needed to defeat the evil one.
I know I’m not Jesus, but I can strive to be like Him. I find great comfort in knowing He is with me every step of the way. I can also find great comfort knowing I have the same weapon that He had. I have God's Word available to me in the Bible.
When I compared my negative thoughts to God's Word, I was amazed at the differences:
My thoughts tell me to give up.
God's Word tells me to be committed. Matthew 5:33-37
My thoughts tell me “I need it now!”
God's Word tells me to exercise self-control. Galatians 5:23
My thoughts tell me I deserve to come first, be selfish.
God's Word tells me to have humility and put others first. Philippians 2:3-4
My thoughts tell me to get mad and hold a grudge.
God's Word says forgive as many times as it takes. Matthew 18:21-22
My thoughts tell me to seek revenge.
God's Word tells me to be a peacemaker. Romans 12:18-19
My thoughts tell me take all the credit.
God's Word tells me to glorify Jesus Christ. John 17:5
My thoughts tell me I need to look good on the outside and no one will notice the ugly inside. God's Word tells me to be pure on the inside and the outside won't even matter. Proverbs 31:30
My thoughts tell me I'm ugly.
God's Word tells me I'm wonderfully made. Psalm 139:14
My thoughts tell me I'm all alone and no one understands me.
God's Word tells me He will never leave me and He knows the plans He has for me. Deuteronomy 31:6, Jeremiah 29:11
My thoughts tell me that I'm just not good enough.
God's Word tells me that I'm His gift to the world and that I was created in His image. Psalm 127:3, Genesis 1:26
I learned the lies must be replaced with Words that are true. That way, when Satan’s lies slither back into my head, I'm ready and I can defeat the enemy.
I admit this has been a challenge for me. I'm so thankful that: I have friends in place who know I struggle with this to remind me of my true identity; I was brave enough to seek counseling when I needed help; I learned that anxiety and depression were not always my fault and I was open to receive medical attention from a professional in this area; my family, especially my husband, who stood beside me even when I was miserable to be around; and, each time I felt like quitting or giving up, I never did.
I don't want to waste time that God has given me to live with negative thoughts about myself and lies that aren't true. That only keeps me from Him and keeps me from the work He has purposed me for. Evaluate your thoughts. Condemning thoughts are not from God. Renew your mind with the Word of God. Do not allow the enemy to separate you from the love of God and the life that was meant for you.
Dear Lord, Fill me with Your Word so that I can live in freedom. In Jesus' Name, Amen.
Related Resources:
Do You Know Him?
Becoming a Woman Who Listens to God by Sharon Jaynes
Hope in the Midst of Depression: How to Embrace Life Again by Mary Southerland
Visit Melissa’s blog: I Am Beautiful
Application Steps:
Read the verses in this devotion and write down what God's Word says.
Reflections:
Are your thoughts reflective of who you really are?
Do you look at yourself the way God looks at you?
Power Verses:
Philippians 4:8, "Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things." (NIV)
Romans 8:1, "Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus." (NIV)
Hello Tweaky1h and Jupiter7,
I want to thank u both for taking the time to answer my concern. I have to agree with the both of you. I agree with tweaky that it can be an a dis association from my husband and girls. All i do is worry about what thought am i gonna have today from the time i wake up til i go to bed. Then before u know i get the same thought as almost everyday which is the one i discribed to u before. But I want to thank jupiter for those verses and our own thought tat was very inspiring to read. I have let myself get the thought and not tried to fight it and not get scare of it and i can tell u it's going away a lil at a time. still needs some work. My daughter is a very happy, lively little girl. Looks just like her dad and sister. She's also like me in a lot of her ways. I can see the ocd problem in her as well already. For ex: on friday she tells me a little girlin her class talked bad about me(mom) and made a joke that she didnt liked so she tells me tat the little girl hurt her feelings. we spoke about it and i comforted her. Later that evening she's sitting next to me and tells me ma' rite u feel bad wen u tell a lie. i said yes it does feel bad wen u lie bc its not a nice thing to do. so, she started to cry, I asked why r u crying? did u lie today? she said yes. so she tells me she made up the story about the little girl talking about me. she said she made it up bc the little girl bothers her a lot so she wanted to get back at her by telling the teacher a big lie so she could get in trouble. Now my daughter is crying her eyes out. so I hugged her and explained to her that it wasnt very of her to lie to me or her teacher. so now she is scared bc she wants to tell her teacher but afraid tat the teacher will get mad at her for lying. I told her that i will b there wen she tells the teacher and will make sure the teacher doesnt be upset. so she felt a lot better. she said that she couldnt go to sleep bc she kept thinking about the lie.so, Not until she told me about it, she felt better. N tat's me! If i have something in my mind tats not rite i wont feel good about myself until i do something about it. Like i said she is alot like me. But also a handful as well very talkative, very demanding wen she wants something and tat drives me crazy sometimes. Mayb that's why i feel anxious around her at times. because she doesn;t like to take no for an answer sometimes. I;m sure u can relate with me to have a little one at home tat's high maintenance......lol, But I love her dearly. she;s always with me and so is my big girl. I never leave them with anyone. I dont get a break. But tat's mother hood. Thanks for listening.
I want to thank u both for taking the time to answer my concern. I have to agree with the both of you. I agree with tweaky that it can be an a dis association from my husband and girls. All i do is worry about what thought am i gonna have today from the time i wake up til i go to bed. Then before u know i get the same thought as almost everyday which is the one i discribed to u before. But I want to thank jupiter for those verses and our own thought tat was very inspiring to read. I have let myself get the thought and not tried to fight it and not get scare of it and i can tell u it's going away a lil at a time. still needs some work. My daughter is a very happy, lively little girl. Looks just like her dad and sister. She's also like me in a lot of her ways. I can see the ocd problem in her as well already. For ex: on friday she tells me a little girlin her class talked bad about me(mom) and made a joke that she didnt liked so she tells me tat the little girl hurt her feelings. we spoke about it and i comforted her. Later that evening she's sitting next to me and tells me ma' rite u feel bad wen u tell a lie. i said yes it does feel bad wen u lie bc its not a nice thing to do. so, she started to cry, I asked why r u crying? did u lie today? she said yes. so she tells me she made up the story about the little girl talking about me. she said she made it up bc the little girl bothers her a lot so she wanted to get back at her by telling the teacher a big lie so she could get in trouble. Now my daughter is crying her eyes out. so I hugged her and explained to her that it wasnt very of her to lie to me or her teacher. so now she is scared bc she wants to tell her teacher but afraid tat the teacher will get mad at her for lying. I told her that i will b there wen she tells the teacher and will make sure the teacher doesnt be upset. so she felt a lot better. she said that she couldnt go to sleep bc she kept thinking about the lie.so, Not until she told me about it, she felt better. N tat's me! If i have something in my mind tats not rite i wont feel good about myself until i do something about it. Like i said she is alot like me. But also a handful as well very talkative, very demanding wen she wants something and tat drives me crazy sometimes. Mayb that's why i feel anxious around her at times. because she doesn;t like to take no for an answer sometimes. I;m sure u can relate with me to have a little one at home tat's high maintenance......lol, But I love her dearly. she;s always with me and so is my big girl. I never leave them with anyone. I dont get a break. But tat's mother hood. Thanks for listening.
Live, Laugh, and Love Well.