Posted: Thu May 22, 2008 10:09 am
Most of the time when things do not come easily to me or are difficult to figure out I become barbaric. I am a very talented person which I am thankful for and when things do not go my way I act very foolish and want to smash things. I find myself calculating the costs of my possessions before I completely lose control and usually just punch something I know will not break. Yesterday I tore my shirt off because I had an overdraft charge on my checking account. I then preceded to punch my dresser as hard as I could. I chose these actions because the shirt was a free gift for going to a pro baseball game and the dresser was donated by a family member. Am I so obsessed with money that it controls me even when I am out of control? Looking back I remember having an episode at a young age because I lost $100 worth of fishing tackle in one day. How do I control these feelings?