elizabeth,
trust me, i know what you mean.
i was diagnosed with autoimmune thyroiditis 3 years ago, and have been taking meds for it since.
it struck me as weird (and still does), as no one in my family has ever had problems like this and I have always been a healthy person. there are no autoimmune conditions in our family either. my grandmothers lived into their late 80's and early 90's, and longevity is a hallmark of my family.
so, when i was having anxiety attacks 3 years ago from my toxic job, i went to the doctor thinking it was food poisoning based on how I felt. they did every test imaginable, and it was during the blood test that they found antibodies and my TSH was 31!
so that was why i always felt fatigued!
since then, i have been the good soldier taking my 50 mcg of levothyroxine, until this past spring when i began to get extreme panic attacks which were, once again, brought on by serious life situations and the same toxic job.
since then, i have finally left that hole of a job, am finishing up my Masters in what i hope will be a rewarding new career, and settled alot of my life stuff.
but it was only this year, 3 years later, that the reality of being diagnosed as hypothyroid and being on medication hit me; and hit me for the worst.
you see, i hate medication. i never take aspirin for a headache; and i never get headaches. i eat organic, lots of fruits and vegetables, lean meats, take vitamins, etc, lift weights...so how is it that i got this thing?
sometimes i am convinced that it was extreme chronic stress over 5+ years that did me in. i hope that my new lifestyle can turn the tide; that perhaps it was only adrenal burnout that led to this condition, and lots of rest, adequate nutrition, laughter, prayer, and a new outlook and career will help me to recover completely.
heck, 10% of patients do experience spontaeneous remission, so that's something to hope for, right?
why am i telling you all of this? well, i guess to let you know that you are not alone. waiting for test results does suck.
as far as worrying about the results, are you worried about being found to have hypothyroidism, or is it that it is the waiting for the results that is bothering you?
if you are worried about being diagnosed of having it, i understand completely.
perhaps the best advice i can give, is that you have been feeling a certain way in the first place to warrant the doctor visit and the blood test, no? and if it is found that you have a case of hypothyroidism, and you start taking the medication, you WILL feel better. and then it will be figured out and you will have a course of treatment to help you feel good again.
but if the tests come back and everything is ok, then you can rest easy knowing that it is not hypothyroidism.
if it is the waiting for the results that bugs you, try not to let it do that. the results will either suggest yes or no. the tests can show where you are, and will help gauge what needs to be done to get you back to normal again.
perhaps the most important thing with this type of thing, is to stay positive. you did everything you can (got the test), and it is now out of your hands. let the doctor do his/her thing, and you will cross the bridge of dealing with the results when you get there.