Posted: Thu Mar 13, 2008 7:50 am
Piglet,
It's normal to feel like you are feeling. It's also normal to feel like it is working for everyone but you. Hang in there though. It is the thinking in your head that has gotten you to this place, and it will be the thinking in your head that will get you out. Give yourself permission to change your thinking. You have infinite worth, and you are special. God created you because He wanted to. It's okay that you are not perfect, it's okay that you are having difficulty, it's okay that you are having to work through this. It's okay! For the longest, I thought I deserved the type of thinking about myself that I had. I told myself that that was how God saw me, so I should think that way. But I know now that is not true. So I can change my thinking - I can begin to think of good things, not bad. I can laugh at myself and not chew myself out for doing something silly or not being flawless. The way I think is something I have control over. I may not be able to stop the thoughts that automatically come into my head, but I don't have to entertain them. I can rest in the moment and not think outside of it. You are special, you are needed, and you are worth thinking good things about yourself and your life. You are in my prayers.
It's normal to feel like you are feeling. It's also normal to feel like it is working for everyone but you. Hang in there though. It is the thinking in your head that has gotten you to this place, and it will be the thinking in your head that will get you out. Give yourself permission to change your thinking. You have infinite worth, and you are special. God created you because He wanted to. It's okay that you are not perfect, it's okay that you are having difficulty, it's okay that you are having to work through this. It's okay! For the longest, I thought I deserved the type of thinking about myself that I had. I told myself that that was how God saw me, so I should think that way. But I know now that is not true. So I can change my thinking - I can begin to think of good things, not bad. I can laugh at myself and not chew myself out for doing something silly or not being flawless. The way I think is something I have control over. I may not be able to stop the thoughts that automatically come into my head, but I don't have to entertain them. I can rest in the moment and not think outside of it. You are special, you are needed, and you are worth thinking good things about yourself and your life. You are in my prayers.