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I would...
- be a better wife
- have the guts to go after my dreams
- be more adventurous
- do what I say I'm going to do
- live life to the fullest
- be happy in my own skin
- be the person I always wanted to be

~Go back to school
~Travel
~Go shopping by myself (used to be one of my favorite things to do)
~Do more things that I'm invited to do
~Find a job I truly love
~Be a better girlfriend, daughter, sister,
~Be me again

I'd be able to feel like me and not a hollow shell
I'd be able to cry when I needed to
and laugh when I wanted to
I'd be able to leave my apartment whenever I wanted without having to give myself a pep talk just to get out the door.
I'd take up swimming again and dance classes and finish my martial arts and get that black belt like I dreamed of five years back.
I could just be the real me.

I would be a stay at home mom, homeschooling next month without the worry of how this will actually happen.
I would be more patient with my kids, and not lose my temper when they act out or start whining.
I would take care of the house and chores.
I would prepare meals for my family.
I would be a loving wife, supporting my husband, working together to raise our kids.
I would be more active with my religious group, doing God's will daily.
I would enjoy the simple things God has placed on earth for us.
I would take care of myself and learn how to love myself.

If my anxiety & depression were not holding me back, I would:

have all debts paid off and savings in the bank
be athletic & powerful (as opposed to fat & depressed)
have a husband
live like normal people
be happy

If my anxiety and depression weren't holding me back I could:
Feel comfortable in my own home and be able to actually hold a job for longer than 10 months....
Start a project and finish it in a reasonable length of time
Go more places without fear and anxiety
Travel alone if I needed to
Be able to handle my money more responsibly
Be able to write regularly so I can actually make a living at it (at least a partial living)
Be able to participate in the community without feeling naked and vulnerable
Sleep better
Loving myself instead of hating myself a lot of the time
Let go of the guilt and pain of my past and not get sick about thinking about the future
Be more fit, healthy and confident
Meet someone I can build a relationship with
Go out and be social -- meet and keep friends
Speak my mind and let myself shine
Go back to school and become someone better than I am right now
Help my family and friends as well if it turns out they may have some of my problems too.
Be able to breath easy and relax more
Become more athletic

That's about it for now but you get the picture I feel like I haven't really been living up to my full potential these past 28 years...

I would be able to...

Go anywhere I want to go
Spend more time with friends and family
Go back to work and feel good about being there
Fly in an airplane
Feel comfortable in my own skin again
Feel good about myself
Not worry about anxiety anymore

Get on a plane
Go somewhere new and not freak out that I am gonna die in some foreign place alone.
Live outside the city without wonderring where the nearest hospital is.. or if they have 911 service especially for me

Not worry about how far from home I am
Not worry that something catastrophic will happen
Go back to work!
Not be afraid to get preggers!

I would...

*Drive the 50k truck I own
*Go out to eat with friends and family
*Enjoy my relationship
*Go spend the money that I work so hard to earn.
*Be happy, and actuall live again!

None of us signed up for this, but we all have a mission to accomplish. We all are going to win this battle, and no ones giving up!

Jay

Hello Jay,

I like your Attuide. Quote: we all are going to win this battle and no ones giving up. I feel exactly the same way so brother keep with it and a speedy recovery.

inside man