ah, lenore, you have so much to share.
I feel like I am walking in your footprints when I oftentimes read your posts.
thank you for taking the time to share your experiences.
i, too, am doing much better. each month seems an improvement.
i have taken only slightly different paths from you, as prayer/God + exercise + my anxiety counselor + supportive family and friends + good nutrition + eliminating negative events + Lucinda + time have all worked wonders.
what i need to use in greater abundance, is your use of journals with dealing with past emotional crises. you see, I am a "storer", or i don't deal with my emotions when they happen, i "store" them away (for what purpose I will never know). Alas, they build when I do this, and it eventually leads to an explosion.
I also am a tremendous commitment-phobe, and am working on this one as well.
but I am finishing up my graduate degree, looking for the fun and positive in every situation (my wife and I are pregnant with a BOY and expecting in 5/2009!!!

)- heck, this news from yesterday has really ignited HOPE in my life...and this is essentially what I was asking God for, ofcourse in my babble-ese...God was probably like "Alright, already, here ya go, it's hope that you want, here...have HOPE, just stop talking!"- jk.
i work part-time in the schools, and have a great time with the kids.
i know that i need to work more on positive training, as i can sometimes still be susceptible to feeling down about things, but overall love your message.
thanks for inspiring Lenore!