Thank you Tina. I have a 12:15 Dr. appointment. I've decided to not work tonight but I will be working two back to back midnight shifts over the weekend instead. I'll keep you posted as to what the doctor says.
Re: books, I donate mine to the library. They always seem glad for the donation....
Do you know, I came across my giant leather dictionary in storage. My father inscribed it in gold leaf lettering and it was an amazing huge dictionary given to me for my high school reunion. I had it rebound because it had stains everywhere from my exhusband...too long to explain, but a very meaningful gift for me. In fact, it was the only meaningful gift my father ever gave me.
I threw it in the garbage yesterday.
Dear Diary
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correction.
It was given to me and inscribed for my HS graduation, not my reunion.
It was given to me and inscribed for my HS graduation, not my reunion.
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Dear Diary,
I'm back from the chiropractor. He has quite the business, but he is GOOD. He told me that "you have every reason to complain. Your 5th lumbar left side is all wacked out and your middle back is a mess"
Then he moved me and squished me around in various positions and voila. I'm still in pain, but now I think it's from what he did. He said I will be sore for a few days. No biggy.
Diary, I thought of Tina the whole time. He wants me to do YOGA!!! He said start VERY, VERY slowly, or I can seriously hurt myself. He wants me to start stretching my spine, etc.
Love to all,
Love,
Me.
I'm back from the chiropractor. He has quite the business, but he is GOOD. He told me that "you have every reason to complain. Your 5th lumbar left side is all wacked out and your middle back is a mess"
Then he moved me and squished me around in various positions and voila. I'm still in pain, but now I think it's from what he did. He said I will be sore for a few days. No biggy.
Diary, I thought of Tina the whole time. He wants me to do YOGA!!! He said start VERY, VERY slowly, or I can seriously hurt myself. He wants me to start stretching my spine, etc.
Love to all,
Love,
Me.
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Dear Diary,
I was sitting in the waiting room and I was thinking about two different quotes/sayings. I don't believe either quote is true, and I'm wondering what others think.
"The fence is only as strong as the weakest link."
If I am the metaphorical fence, and I have a weak ... heart, for instance, that doesn't make me less strong. Or if I had a disease or depression for instance. I feel that I, being the metaphorical fence would be twice as strong because of my weak link.
"The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over with the same result"
I beg to disagree on this one too, diary. Let me explain....
I believe that when we are learning or trying new things, we are actually carving out new patterns in our brain. So, what may look to everyone else to be the same result, to the actual "carver" there may be slight improvement that he/she might not even be aware of.
Example: Guitar. I'm learning the guitar and for the longest time I played the same chords, over and over, miserably. And then one day, voila. (Ok, one day in my future) I will master the F chord. I'm not insane. It's just hard for my fingers to not hit other notes while playing the F chord.
So, There. I disproved two very common phrases that annoy me.
Musings from me.
I was sitting in the waiting room and I was thinking about two different quotes/sayings. I don't believe either quote is true, and I'm wondering what others think.
"The fence is only as strong as the weakest link."
If I am the metaphorical fence, and I have a weak ... heart, for instance, that doesn't make me less strong. Or if I had a disease or depression for instance. I feel that I, being the metaphorical fence would be twice as strong because of my weak link.
"The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over with the same result"
I beg to disagree on this one too, diary. Let me explain....
I believe that when we are learning or trying new things, we are actually carving out new patterns in our brain. So, what may look to everyone else to be the same result, to the actual "carver" there may be slight improvement that he/she might not even be aware of.
Example: Guitar. I'm learning the guitar and for the longest time I played the same chords, over and over, miserably. And then one day, voila. (Ok, one day in my future) I will master the F chord. I'm not insane. It's just hard for my fingers to not hit other notes while playing the F chord.
So, There. I disproved two very common phrases that annoy me.
Musings from me.
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The saying is, A chain is only as strong as it's weakest link. Never heard the fence version before. That is true and Physics proves it. Although the chain can be repaired with another hook or link. In the body if your heart stops or breaks due to it being the weakest link in the body then maybe it can be fixed and maybe not.
I think the intent is that all pieces are different and have different break points. As you said I agree, it may be damaged but can be repaired to as good as before. But there are still the weaker pieces.
As far as insanity goes, I believe we must be abit crazy or will go crazy.
Hope the back gets better soon for ya, as they can be a real pain as your aware.
Some folks I do care what they think about me, others I could care less and in most cases I prefer they think I am nuts, then they do not screw with me because they don't want me going off on them. Works out well actually. I have been lucky at not having anything stolen or bothered because most see me as someone who just might blast their arse.
I think the intent is that all pieces are different and have different break points. As you said I agree, it may be damaged but can be repaired to as good as before. But there are still the weaker pieces.
As far as insanity goes, I believe we must be abit crazy or will go crazy.
Hope the back gets better soon for ya, as they can be a real pain as your aware.
Some folks I do care what they think about me, others I could care less and in most cases I prefer they think I am nuts, then they do not screw with me because they don't want me going off on them. Works out well actually. I have been lucky at not having anything stolen or bothered because most see me as someone who just might blast their arse.
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R is back, witty as ever. That's not a bad idea to let others think you are off the rocker and be done with them.
The report could be better, J, but also worse. The hospital may have connections to a rehab center. They can probably give you sheets with illustrated exercises for your back. Yoga, of course, but also specific exercises on your own. The key thing to avoid is stress which will cause havoc. Walk away from anyone interested in dishing it out. Play a touch of R for them. You sure made the right decision about work. I remember you posting about that dictionary.
Have given books to the library, but a couple of bookstores now take and sell used books. So I get a little credit to ease my guilt about dragging more home. I am currently reading five at the same time. Good for the old brain. Daughter and I always have an outing like that (with lunch). Sure hope you are resting and feeling much better, love...........T
The report could be better, J, but also worse. The hospital may have connections to a rehab center. They can probably give you sheets with illustrated exercises for your back. Yoga, of course, but also specific exercises on your own. The key thing to avoid is stress which will cause havoc. Walk away from anyone interested in dishing it out. Play a touch of R for them. You sure made the right decision about work. I remember you posting about that dictionary.
Have given books to the library, but a couple of bookstores now take and sell used books. So I get a little credit to ease my guilt about dragging more home. I am currently reading five at the same time. Good for the old brain. Daughter and I always have an outing like that (with lunch). Sure hope you are resting and feeling much better, love...........T
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Thanks guys. R you always make me laugh. Always. I like your idea and will work on acting and looking crazy. Maybe I'll learn to drool.
Tina, I love your idea about the used book store. We actually have one within walking distance. I will also ask the chiropractor and my hospital about physical therapy exercises, but I'm sort of reluctant to do that. I will try.
Wait, I came here to say something. Darn it. I forgot. Oh....
Today my DH came home from work and said that he was told to hand over the office keys, they changed the locks and put an instant message on his office email saying he no longer works there.
Stress, but I will be very zennnnnnnn Plus, my trusted relaxing pills. Sorry R. I need them. I'm proud of you, but until I get more zen like, I will be taking my relaxing pills. And searching for a full time job.
Tina, I love your idea about the used book store. We actually have one within walking distance. I will also ask the chiropractor and my hospital about physical therapy exercises, but I'm sort of reluctant to do that. I will try.
Wait, I came here to say something. Darn it. I forgot. Oh....
Today my DH came home from work and said that he was told to hand over the office keys, they changed the locks and put an instant message on his office email saying he no longer works there.
Stress, but I will be very zennnnnnnn Plus, my trusted relaxing pills. Sorry R. I need them. I'm proud of you, but until I get more zen like, I will be taking my relaxing pills. And searching for a full time job.
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I'am not sure about the drool..... 
J, do you know your are quite remarkable. Your whiners do not have a clue yet, I kinda think the I can train running on stable tracks may gain a passenger so. Your the Conductor, you will see when the dues are aknowleged and some payment made.
Our Backs need lots and lots of water and the body benefits also.
Went to the dentist this morning for some extracting and the day was it sucks.
Not sure what you mean by zen, I will find out.
Sorry to hear dh got the boot, he knew it was coming has he been moving forward or still mad at the world?
Nothing wrong with a needed relaxation tool, as long as we use our tools properly. I am sure it has saved many a stressed soul.
Things have been different for me as of late, maybe I should try and put it on words so you are not wondering about me.
More optimistic in outlook and not taking things personal is part of it.
J are you thinking about moving from the Hos. job? Or is it a full time job for the hemroid at the house?
J, do you know your are quite remarkable. Your whiners do not have a clue yet, I kinda think the I can train running on stable tracks may gain a passenger so. Your the Conductor, you will see when the dues are aknowleged and some payment made.
Our Backs need lots and lots of water and the body benefits also.
Went to the dentist this morning for some extracting and the day was it sucks.
Not sure what you mean by zen, I will find out.
Sorry to hear dh got the boot, he knew it was coming has he been moving forward or still mad at the world?
Nothing wrong with a needed relaxation tool, as long as we use our tools properly. I am sure it has saved many a stressed soul.
Things have been different for me as of late, maybe I should try and put it on words so you are not wondering about me.
More optimistic in outlook and not taking things personal is part of it.
J are you thinking about moving from the Hos. job? Or is it a full time job for the hemroid at the house?
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Hi R.,
I will post more tomorrow but even though he Knew it was coming, he was not officially due to leave until 11/11. Today he was asked to never return and he will only be paid for 3 more months.
I feel very loyal to the hospital, because they gave me a chance, etc. I will ask for more hours, swallow my pride and explain the situation. We will see. He is in shock. Big mystery surrounds this, but maybe he doesn't tell me everything.
I will work and work hard. ( no drooling )
Love,
J.
I will post more tomorrow but even though he Knew it was coming, he was not officially due to leave until 11/11. Today he was asked to never return and he will only be paid for 3 more months.
I feel very loyal to the hospital, because they gave me a chance, etc. I will ask for more hours, swallow my pride and explain the situation. We will see. He is in shock. Big mystery surrounds this, but maybe he doesn't tell me everything.
I will work and work hard. ( no drooling )
Love,
J.
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Dear Diary,
I am really worried. My back and neck are in so much pain that tomorrow I will try to see my primary care doc so that she can order xrays or whatever. But I work on Friday night and I am still in so much pain.
He was home all day today just sitting in his chair. We took a walk and he acted a little crazy. My dog was afraid of the traffic and I couldn't lift her because of my back and he lost it on the street and started screaming. It was horrible.
Oh, wait. Tomorrow I have my psychiatrist appt. I want to talk to her about his behavior. Let's face it diary. Something is VERY wrong. He says his office "owes" him. Really? Why can't he ever be accountable for his own actions.
In three months we won't have any income. Today I found some old shorts to sell on ebay, but really. And his memory.
Yesterday he sent a past due check to our hospital for an unpaid bill from a car accident my daughter had where the other person ran a stop sign. That guys insurance is supposed to pay it, but we did, blah blah blah. (we will be reimbursed)
My point: today he asked me what I spent at the Hospital for $150.00. I told him it was the check that HE sent in yesterday for our daughter.
Next week we fly to LA to see my nephew graduate. I was supposed to go alone, but agreed that he can come with me.
I need professional help. I need to talk to Dr. W. Something is WRONG.
Love,
Me.
I am really worried. My back and neck are in so much pain that tomorrow I will try to see my primary care doc so that she can order xrays or whatever. But I work on Friday night and I am still in so much pain.
He was home all day today just sitting in his chair. We took a walk and he acted a little crazy. My dog was afraid of the traffic and I couldn't lift her because of my back and he lost it on the street and started screaming. It was horrible.
Oh, wait. Tomorrow I have my psychiatrist appt. I want to talk to her about his behavior. Let's face it diary. Something is VERY wrong. He says his office "owes" him. Really? Why can't he ever be accountable for his own actions.
In three months we won't have any income. Today I found some old shorts to sell on ebay, but really. And his memory.
Yesterday he sent a past due check to our hospital for an unpaid bill from a car accident my daughter had where the other person ran a stop sign. That guys insurance is supposed to pay it, but we did, blah blah blah. (we will be reimbursed)
My point: today he asked me what I spent at the Hospital for $150.00. I told him it was the check that HE sent in yesterday for our daughter.
Next week we fly to LA to see my nephew graduate. I was supposed to go alone, but agreed that he can come with me.
I need professional help. I need to talk to Dr. W. Something is WRONG.
Love,
Me.