Starting again and getting it right

just my luck · Post by **just my luck** » Sun Aug 05, 2007 12:52 pm

Hi and welcome Eddie glad to have you join us. Hope your night out went well for you it sounds like you made the best out of a nervious situation with your pup and shot's. Sometimes it just takes thinking positive and doing it to get the strength to keep it up. Welcome Matt too glad you with us we are stronger in numbers like Girl said. You can beat the caffeine habbit and you have a good start. The fact you started is a big step so pat yourself on the back for that. We all are doing us one better and from here we can only go up and get better. Thanks cindylou for your input and sure we will post here too so other can join or get help from what we say and do. Are you joining us or are you just giving us input for us? Every step we make getting started or started back up is the right step. It's never too late to join us and anyone and everyone is welcome at anytime. So it's Sunday and tomorrow is the day here we go for a better and stronger us. We are all good people and deserve to be happy this is our way and we will do it. I am so very glad to have all of you respone to this with help and support it's a good thing. I'm going to listen the relaxation cd tonight I'm a bit anxious about starting I will though and let you know how it went for me tomorrow. Good luck to us all and hope to hear from you to let us know how you do which I know will be great it's the only way cause we are doing it yea! Have a Great Day! Sherrie

mominneed · Post by **mominneed** » Sun Aug 05, 2007 6:18 pm

Hello to all,

I am needing to start over too. I started this program and was on track than just stopped as I was feeling better again. I am doing better still I can go into town, to the store, and other places once again.

However,
Today on my way home from a camping trip with my parents, mother and father in law, brother, and my husband and daughter I had another bad panic attack. We were over five hours from home and in the car. There was no where to run and hide to. The only thing I had was my breathing and xanax.

Today opened my eyes once again to what this can do to a person. I now know that I need to do this stick with it and go forward. I need to be able to live again.

So count me in for a new start on Monday with you all. The more to help the better, it is really hard to find people to understand what you go through unless they themselves have gone through it too.

My yahoo is
aalwoods
My email is aalwoods@yahoo.com

just my luck · Post by **just my luck** » Mon Aug 06, 2007 6:05 am

Welcome aalwoods, I hear you and can understand the panic thing and I too thank God for my xanax in times of need. I just had jaw surgery and my oral surgeon is an hour away. The very though to have to drive there myself makes me panic and I'm at home. I have started session 1 and it was nice to listen to cd again even though anxious I did it and it made me feel better. It reminded me of what causes it and all the other things I had forgot too. I know it all seem like a lot to do but a little bit at a time to take it in is what I'm doing. I been finding myself not wanting to leave the house and when I do it's with my husband not alone. I will work on going out on my own this week and working on the workbook some. I want to listen to the session one cd again, but want to welcome you to this little group and let you know your not alone. Good luck we are hear if you need us I will also give you my email address too. Have a Great Day! Sherrie

TL7 · Post by **TL7** » Mon Aug 06, 2007 6:51 am

Butting in

I just wanted to say good for you guys starting it up again. You realized the "mistake" and are working to correct that! Kudos to you..not many people realize or if they do admit to it. Doing the program entirely is well worth it and I have no doubt all of you will get there

I also wanted to say the rainbow puff ball is too cute and that sunset picture was so beautiful, it is now my desktop background.

I hope y'all enjoy your first day towards freedom.

Deborah Evans · Post by **Deborah Evans** » Mon Aug 06, 2007 8:25 am

Hi to all,
Your posts are great to read. It helps so much to know what others are going through. I have started session 6 about anger. But I must admit after session 4 stopped for awhile too. Sometimes you feel so alone, this posts are great, but yet that lonely feeling still hovers over, when you don't have someone to share with you really understands or cares. It is so hard to do alone. Sometimes with the programs I will be alittle more anxious at times, do any of you have that?? Also I do struggle with the social anxiety too, but my real problem is the avoidances. I know this is going to sound silly to some, but I use to be able to drive on the freeways, but for the last 10 years can't. I still drive, just not freeways. I am so angry at myself, wondering how did I end up here. It would really be nice to have support or friends to talk to. I know I am alittle ahead in the sessions but would love to join. I listen to the cd's & wonder how did some of those people get so far just by session 5. I must confess I have tried driving on the freeway couple of times, & yet to have to do it again is like pulling teeth. I agree that the second, third time is not easier than the first. I too wonder if I will be my old self ever again. I want to get there, but seem to fall short on that freeway thing. I can't seem to distract my mind from the panicky feelings before hand, just thinking about getting on. Anyway guess I have rambled enough, would love to have people to be encouraged by & to encourage others.
deb.

mlevesque · Post by **mlevesque** » Mon Aug 06, 2007 8:37 am

Just remember that nobody is perfect. We all have our problems. We need to celebrate the small steps that we make each day and say that more changes will come in time and with patience. Hang in there.

GirlWisdom · Post by **GirlWisdom** » Mon Aug 06, 2007 10:00 am

Happy Monday ppl. Just checking in, wondering how everyone is doing on our 1st day starting over. I know we can do it. I'll get back tonight to check in again regarding our progress!

First off I posted here yesterday, sent the post and it got lost somewhere out in cyber space, and didn't show up on here. I typed my butt off

but to no avail. Lol. Then I had company, so I'm just getting back now.

Welcome to the new posters on this thread!!!!!!! This is going to be a great group I know it. We ARE going to do this. Good Luck All! God Bless!

Hi Deb! I reach out my hand in friendship to you. Don't beat yourself up for how you feel or for little set-backs you have . We all have set-backs and we are all in the same boat as you, just different circumstances. You will be your old self,just be patient and tender with yourself. Just keep repeating positive statements to yourself even when you feel like you would rather say to hell with it.

Keep fighting. Like an old song about depression I use to listen to, "kick at the darkness until it bleeds daylight". I would never kick anything and I'm a gentle soul, but the singer was very depressed and that's what he felt when he decided to fight his depression.

Anyhow, I use to have some social anxiety many years ago, and with the help of a good therapist, and my own will of course, I did get over that aspect of my anxiety. You will too. It's also very normal to feel more anxious at times through this program and Lucinda was talking about that on the coaching videos too. It's part of the healing. I just want to say keep going and don't ever stop the program. Don't lose heart. Anything you post here is not silly. Post all you need to, and we are all here for you.

Hugs and Peace
Beth

just my luck · Post by **just my luck** » Mon Aug 06, 2007 12:27 pm

Hi deb and yes you are welcome no matter where you are in the program. I'm with you about freeway driving it get's to me and makes me anxious. I use to be a good driver and drove long hauls now I can't even drive and hour from my house to see my doctor. It's not silly it just anxiety and were learning how to deal with it. Girl said it the best your are a good preson we all are and there is nothing wrong in needing support.I would like to thank TL7 and mlevesque for you supporting us it really means alot. I got through my day wasn't very good but I'm not down and the cd help me see that it is the way I think about things. I didn't get to the work book or journal yet but there is alway tomorrow. Someone said little bit's at a time and that is true don't have to take it all in at once. We need to take our time so we don't get too anx out on it. It's a great day and it's all been good support in here today. I don't feel so alone and that helps me not be so negative. I will be reading my carry along card and listening to the relaxation cd tonight and check back on this site to see how the rest of you are doing, Girl you sound great and what you said gives me hope that Yes I will get back to being myself again. It's the first step and as long as we keep taken them they we get us where we need to go back to ourselves. Have a Great Day! Sherrie :p

TL7 · Post by **TL7** » Mon Aug 06, 2007 12:45 pm

Deborah...it is important to know that most of the people on the cds have gone through the program completely...so just because you are listening to lesson 5 doesn't mean they are also on lesson 5. NEVER COMPARE!! Seriously...what may take me a few hours may take someone else a few minutes or vice versa. Work at your own pace...if you need to review do that...if you need to take 2 weeks on one lesson do that too. I didn't start feeling better until around lesson 8 or 9...some people feel better a lot sooner...some a lot later, it just depends on the person.

Deborah Evans · Post by **Deborah Evans** » Mon Aug 06, 2007 12:49 pm

Thank you Beth & Sherrie for your warm welcome's. It really helps to know that you have friends to share with that can understand & care to listen. It does make one not feel so alone.
I have felt so alone since starting this program, that you find your getting discouraged.
Have a great day!!! deb.