Is this Anxiety or can I really be sick? I need advice please

lovely1377 · Post by **lovely1377** » Wed Sep 17, 2008 11:30 am

Hello all, I am new to this program. I have yet to order this program yet however I did get the 5 free lessons emailed to me. I am going through so much right now and I was hoping maybe to get some help here. I have been having so many symptoms over the past six months and I really think something is medically wrong with me, but the emergency room and my doctor keep sending me home with the diagnosis of anxiety. I feel so crazy, I almost get angry and want to make up serious symptoms sometimes because noone understands how I feel, not even the doctors. I feel tired, dizzy, short of breath, confused, can't sleep most times, scared I won't wake up, scared that something is wrong with my heart, headaches fear that I have some sort of tumor or something, I mean things are really bad, and I refuse to believe that this is just anxiety. My doctor gave me lexpro, and effexor, tried the lexpro one time and it made me so nausous, and scared of the side affects that I stopped taking them. I am so scared that the medicine will make me feel worst, or even that I don't need them because something else is wrong. How can i feel so horrible and the only thing that is wrong with me is Anxiety, this scares me?? Some one please help me, I am sooo tired of living this way!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 17, 2008 11:36 am

These are very classic anxiety symptoms. There are lots more (but I won't share them with you!) You've been checked out. You can believe your medical doctors. Work the program and move through these symptoms with the help of the tools. Don't judge yourself. Soothe and love yourself every step of the way. You can heal this.

dark-freaks · Post by **dark-freaks** » Wed Sep 17, 2008 11:56 am

Hello all, I have had the program for a couple of years and I only took it out of the box once or twice.It has taken me this long to come to the site for some support. I have suffered with anxiety and panic attacks since I was small, but only diagnosed with a disorder in the last three years. I asked for support from my friends and even though their intentions are good they just can't understand. I have no family to support me and I think that's where most of this stems from. I take regular meds and now they don't seem to be doing much so mu Dr. upped my dosage. I trust him as he has been with me for 14yrs and he has been trying very hard. I am so sick of this. I have had a particularily rough day with scary thoughts and even with more meds am not feeling much better. I went through a period where I was very hopeful and finding my smile, but the stress keeps coming and I feel like I'm going backwards.I can't seem to get started on the program or anything else. I can barely get to work on days like this,but music has been my whole life and I "should" look forward to any shows I get. Any relative stories from all those here would be greatly appreciated. I know I'm not alone, but from here it feels that way.

Lew · Post by **Lew** » Wed Sep 17, 2008 12:07 pm

I understand how you feel, by reading your experiences I feel I am reading my own. Dont feel scared that you feel so bad and the only this you have is anxiety, be positive knowing that anxiety is treatable and that you have the power to do so much to control it. I have been suffering from Anxiety and panic attacks for about 9 years, the doctors I have seen, only know to treat anxiety with medicines In my case with lexapro and busparine which they heavly depressed me so I rather deal with my anxiety than with side effect of heavy depression from medicine. I was like you, afraid of everything, any little sympton I had, in my mind I was convinced it was cancer or that my heart is sick or if my children had fever that it was cancer as well, but you know listening to the cds and dvds from Lucinda made me realized that I am not the only one suffering from this condition, it has giving me hope and a new way to think. I am barely on session 2 and I already feel the diffference much much better. Keeping a journal of my anxiety attacks and to write down questions such as: why did I feel that way? What did I eat before the episode? has helped me realized that when I eat eggs I feel extremely anxious throught out the day, and avoiding them has helpmed feel more in control. I showed a friend video 1 and cd 1 of the program and she was fascinated to find out she is not the only one and that she can regain control of her life, she is ordering the program because she wants to have her own copy. I look at it as an investment on myself, I tell myself I am worth it.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 17, 2008 12:16 pm

Thank you Mimi for your insight. I want this to just stop and then, of course, you get scared that it won't and all my positive thinking and motivation go out the window. I know that I have some good days but I can't seem to connect with them right now. I'm exhausted from worry and I still have to go to work tonight. My job makes me go. I am an entertainer and there is no calling in sick, so it is good to get out of the house and try to focus my energy elsewhere. I have had attacks on stage,but the audience never knows and the only time I couldn't go to work in the last 20 yrs was when I had my appendix out last Dec. My band is somewhat supportive so that helps too. My guitar player is prone to panic attacks, but he seems to be getting the positive thinking thing down very well. Unfortunately, that makes me belive that I'm not doing so good at this. Thanks for being here and relaying your journey to me. I think I'll just try to breathe for now.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 17, 2008 12:27 pm

Have no fear! Your symptoms are classic for those of us that suffer from anxiety/panic disorder. Since I was a kid, and I am 47 now, I have lived a life of not being able to have a headache without it being a tumor, a stomach ache without it being cancer and, the list goes on an on... always the worst, especially since I am getting older! It doesn't help that I am an R.N. and know too much! We can psych/trick our brains into "feeling" anything we want... sad, but true!

I purchased the program and am really trying to work it, but it is proving to be difficult and even increased my anxiety!

You MUST have trust in your physicians! If you have been to the ER and seen your docs and they say that it is anxiety, you must believe them. I know, it is very difficult to do, but WE HAVE TO! Further advice, STAY OFF OF THE NET and researching your symptoms... places like WebMD and WrongDiagnosis are VERY DANGEROUS places for those of us with anxiety and panic to visit! Just TRY each and everyday to believe that the signs and symptoms that we feel are exacerbated by our anxieties. The mind is a very powerful tool.

With all of that being said, if you are having new or unusual symptoms, it warrants getting them checked out. Even those of us with anxiety and panic get sick, unfortunately! But, if like myself, you have been told that your specific symptoms are anxiety related and they have done tests to prove that nothing else is wrong, you have to have faith in the medical professionals. I promise, in 24 years, I haven't met one physician yet that was out to keep information from his/her patients as it relates to their health!

Good luck and have FAITH!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 17, 2008 1:20 pm

Thanks so much see bee, you insight has helped me, I just want the symptoms to go away. I am really scared of the medications, I don't know what to do, if I should take them or what. I just don't know how this got so out of control, when will this end, I feel like getting myself locked in a institute somewhere so that I don't have to deal anymore!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 17, 2008 1:51 pm

Dear Lovely,

Medications can be of help, but without behavior and thinking changes there is seldom much long term change. The program is what helped me change.

There are books and workbooks out there that can be of help to you. But the bottom line is: dedication to recovery, work, and consistancy.

You can find your answers and you can change. We care, we've been there, Carolyn

P.S. You would still have to deal with "it" no matter where you were. Have you read, FROM PANIC TO POWER...might be encouraging to you.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 17, 2008 2:06 pm

Hope the Dr. checked your thyroid level. I suffer from anxiety but when my thyroid was overactive it was much much worse. I though I was going crazy. So if they have not done blood test and checked yours it may be wise to ask them to do so. I found out you really need to be your own advocate when dealing with drs.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 17, 2008 2:11 pm

I can relate to this as well. I have been having weird symptoms over the last few months especailly lately. I often wonder if something is really wrong or if it is just anxiety. I'm sure the anxiety makes it worse. I have been getting lots of tests done yet nothing mayjor has been wrong . I have light numbness and tingling in different parts of my body that comes and goes for different lenghths of time. This has been freaking me out the most. Now my doctor wants me to get a brian MRI. I try to use postive talk ect. when it is happening but when it doesn't go away or lasts for days it is hard. Because you do start getting scared. I can relate and I wish you all the best in your situations. If anyone has advice on this I would love to hear it.