Derik, as someone who has been with this website for almost two years, I KNEW that this 20/20 program would start a wave of conversation! I tuned into it too on Friday night and to be quite honest, it scared the bejeebies out of me!!! I, too, have had scary obsessive thoughts

But that's just it, there THOUGHTS! My hubby watched it with me and I told him, "I'll be reading about this on Lucindas website tomorrow"...The show didn't bother me as much as the thought of "WHAT IF my husband thinks I'll turn out like that"...Gosh, I had to turn the channel

Although, I do consider myself on the high road to recovery, things like that program still can get to me

I believe that you are just "what ifing"..My mother was diagnosed with Paranoid/schizophrenia in the early 80s and I do believe that started this whole mess with anxiety and depression..yes I am pre exposed to mental illness, but in no way does that mean I will become schizophrenic...let me tune you in to a little something...My mothers Dr.s have told me and my father that a person that is "schizo" has had quite a few challanges their whole life(even as small children) VERY rare is it that someone can just "get it"..There are personality traits that can be traced to small childhood. and NO, anxiety or nervousness, wasn't one of them.. I personally am very relieved to hear that, so that has pretty much aleviated any fear of getting "that". The biggest fear with us "anxious" people is that we will "go crazy", "flip out" and "lose touch with all reality"..that is contrare to what people that are REALLY "Crazy" think like. THEY DO NOT KNOW THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH THEM AND THEY THINK IT'S EVERYONE ELSE THAT'S "CRAZY". So as long as your "worried" about it, it's pretty safe to say that YOU WON'T! Take care, my friend and continue with the program. Sometimes advice and suggestions may sound a bit harsh here, but believe me, it's all out of good intentions..and don't forget, WE'RE ALL A BUNCH of ANXIOUS "WHAT IFers" TOO

TAke care and relax..YOU WILL BE FINE!!!
Blessing,
Robin