need help! Scared!

nursekr · Post by **nursekr** » Thu May 08, 2008 12:39 am

I'm having an emg done because of numbness and tingling in my hands and my doc wants me to get an emg! I'm scared not really of the test but of the results! Any of you on here that knows me knows that one of my biggest fears or obsession is that I have MS! I just ca't convince myself other wise you know what I'm saying despite the fact that I have benn dealing with this for awhile now as in 6 years!
sometimes I just think I am never going to get better despite all the effort I put into trying to! Ok its just nice to be able to vent!

Britt55 · Post by **Britt55** » Thu May 08, 2008 1:37 am

I suffere with major hypochondria and I can ASSURE you that if you convince your self you have some sort of specific illness or disease, your body WILL start to display actual physical sympotoms of the illness. I have had it happen to me over and over, all I've done is wasted time that I'll never get back with worry instead of happiness and racked up a ton of medical bills that I can't afford to pay even didpite the fact that I do have insurance. I am only 25 by the way. I heard of someone that had colon cancer (not even related to me) and I was just convinced that I had it...after I thought about it for so long I was haveing bad rectal pain, diareah and one day when I went to the bathroom, the toilet water was bright red with blood, a lot of it! Actual blood! The doctor sent me in for a colonoscopy and guess what...NOTHING! They found NOTHING. I didn't make up the pain or the blood, those things were real...but did I cause them with my mind and my obcessing over the "colon cancer"???? I have to wonder...since the test was done I have never had anymore physical symptoms of that particular cancer.....now I've moved on to fixating on my heart (having a heart attack or stroke.....). Good luck to you! I'm sure there is nothing wrong with you, just like there is probably nothing wrong with me. I am working on taking my life back. Hypochondria and depression have taken it from me....

Tallboy · Post by **Tallboy** » Thu May 08, 2008 1:39 am

Not that I am an expert...but my 2 cents worth thinks that once you have the test done you will feel better.

If you get good news and have nothing you will feel fantastic.....if you get bad news at least you will know what you are dealing with and take the necessary actions to alleviate...

no reason to be afraid...it is what it is and knowing beats constantly worrying and driving yourself nuts...good luck

TrinityMN · Post by **TrinityMN** » Thu May 08, 2008 2:26 am

I have to say that Tallboy has made a really good point. I worried about skin cancer and it took me 7 years before I would get checked. I don't have it, in fact I didn't have to have anything removed! I'm almost 37! I worry and worry and it's just a waste. I try to tell myself that there will be time enough to worry when I'm told something is going on. This is easier said than done. I still have many moments but I am a work in progress. Be gentle with yourself and know that you are not alone.

Boon · Post by **Boon** » Thu May 08, 2008 4:54 am

nursekr - Your problem is not ms or any other ailment that you may obsess about. Your problem is worry. Your focus is on the negative. These people offer you great insight! Sit down and write a success rehearsal about your visit to the doctor, the test and the outcome. HOW DO YOU WANT IT TO BE? That's what you write about and then read this scenerio daily until your appt date.

nursekr · Post by **nursekr** » Fri May 09, 2008 3:27 pm

thank you guys so much I really am so happy to have you guys to talk with its great! I'm sure your right there is nothing wrong with me I have been suffering with this for 6 years along time it started when I looked up my syptoms and they matched with ms! I now I shouldnt have done that. Anyway i have had a lot of things done to me from cat scans to lung scans i had a monitor for a week for my heart ekg's you name and everything came back normal! I had my grandpa and cousin test positive for celiac disease so for days i thought I had that and got the test it came back negative and the syptoms went away so I am sure it is nothing! Sorry so long it just feels really good to get it out!

Trystan0620 · Post by **Trystan0620** » Fri May 09, 2008 4:19 pm

Dear nusekr, First of all, know that you are not alone ~ all of us here have experienced symptoms you deal with ~ otherwise, we would not be here in the first place. I too have been tested for MS, and found to be negative. Is that a good thing? Yes ~ on the forefront, but what the hell is going on with me? I someties question my sanity. Next week I am scheduled for oral surgey. Already, I am having anxiety attacks over it. Trystan

AMS · Post by **AMS** » Sat May 10, 2008 1:39 am

I cannot begin to tell you what it means to me to read all of the postings here I struggle with obsessing about having medical things wrong with me all of the time and I really feel like I am crazy and totally out of control a lot of the time Other than that I tend to function OK (husband, kids, jobs, etc) and it feels like this is so stupid that I have to keep it a secret My issue is even when I go to the doctor and the doctor says it's fine, I wonder if he/she missed something or is just not telling me something or if I have a test done I wonder if they did it wrong or if I read something on the net about a related thing I am convinced that I probably have that and they didn't know it Sometimes I just feel like "Make this stop!" I guess it helps me to know that I am not the only one who deals with this issue Thanks for sharing!

trina28 · Post by **trina28** » Sat May 10, 2008 2:11 am

This means a lot to me too. I suffer from the same thing. Thats actually why I came on the sight today. I found out I have post nasal drip, and by the way it is so common, anyways I have to take sudafed, and I've took sudafed before, before I had anxiety and I was fine, but of course I think this time I wont be fine. My doctor said it might make me jittery. So thats what I'm hanging on to. Also I went to the doctors yesterday and all of my results were excellent, but I still think somethings wrong. I really, really hope I could stop worrying! help!

Freckles · Post by **Freckles** » Sat May 10, 2008 2:19 pm

Hi, Nursekr. Boy did you ever hit a topic we all can relate too! Just reading all the replies to your post made me feel a little better too. I just had a physical done thursday and have some blood work to be done. My anxiety is caused by fear of dying or something medically wrong. I TOTALLY understand the fear you have. I woory about the results I'll be seeing too. But my doctor told me some good advice that matched Lucinda's....Face your Fears. Usually they are only your mind playing with you. Things will be fine. That's for sharing your scarey thoughts...we are all here for you.