Need help with my mental attitude

[HopfulME]

Hi,

I have been slacking of late and can't get motivated. I have had the program since December, and I listen to the tapes, but when I go to do the homework assignments, I get overwhelmed. I start to read what it is I need to do for the week, and It's almost like there is too much information to digest, so I can't get past step 1. I feel as though I am not doing it right. I will write in my journal, and find weeks have gone by and I forgot to write anything down. I just can't get it together. I have stopped caffeine and started an excercise program which I am doing very well at. (on the days I miss, I get mad at myself though because I feel like crap). I am having a hard time with eating. I have all healthy foods in my house, but tend to even overeat them. It makes me nuts. I have changed somewhat for the better in my personality, and since I stopped taking my meds (trileptal, welbutrin, tompomax,) I actually feel like my old self again. Sometimes though I get weird, because I hate doing the same thing over and over, so when I hear the relaxation tape, instead of relaxing I cringe. I think I need to get a new one from the store.
I feel myself losing motivation and when I wake up, I am thinking again. I need to just move. I know it will pass, and it is usually when I have a few days off from work in a row.
It seems though that I have been working out for three weeks now and am wondering when the energy will kick in. I am eating very healthy, exercising, taking the Good Days vitamins and also iron because I need it. When is the energy going to come? Any motivational speech that anyone has, I am up for it. Also if you have any insight on how to go through the program and not feel overwhelmed? I think sometimes I have ADD. I cannot grasp too much at one time or I have system overload. Then I end up doing nothing. I really want to get better and I am trying, but I am having a really hard time.
HOPEFULL

[Guest]

I have the same problem with not being able grasp too much at one time. I like to learn things at my own pace and have just decided that if I need to listen to the weeks tape for longer than a week then that is what I'm gonna do. I also got the feeling of cringing at the sound of the same relaxation tape. It would be nice if they had sent a few different types of relaxation tapes. You may want to check with a hypnotherapy center for similar tapes. Some of them are really good.

[jimbobek]

HI Hopeful:

I take my time and grasp each concept I have compassion and patience with myself, if I slack, then I start back to whatever session I last mastered and go from there. I got the program at the end of November and am only on session 5 so be patient! you may have to redo the program a few times before you master it all!

Best wishes