Support circle for depression

uluvnic · Post by **uluvnic** » Tue Jul 27, 2010 1:22 am

So I started feeling better last night after my post. I'm so relieved to know it was just a mood. I get pretty negative and depressed when I'm in pain, and I hurt my back Sunday so I've been in constant pain for 2 straight days. (It's SO much better today. Thank you modern medicine!) I also thought to myself, what if I just do everything this program says to do regardless of whether or not I believe it'll work? What if I quit asking myself how I feel and just do the right things regardless? I think I do owe that to myself. I can't give up. I need to give myself a fair shot because I've been half-a**ing it so far. I need to just do what I know is good for me physically and mentally and have faith. I really want to do the program over again.

God bless everyone!

scruffy · Post by **scruffy** » Tue Jul 27, 2010 1:37 pm

Yes depression is the worst.Cant seem to find a med that works Took Wellbutrin and after 2 weeks I was still crying and more depressed. Seems so hopless at times

hopefullartist · Post by **hopefullartist** » Tue Jul 27, 2010 2:57 pm

yea,depression is the worst! fell like im doing better with the anxiety,been hiding in the house far to long, 4 yrs. getting out helps but some days can be hard.today is one of those days.its been a good day but somehow the depression creeps back in no matter how good the days been.but tomorrows another day and i WILL keep going. im not going to let this beat me!

hopefullartist · Post by **hopefullartist** » Tue Jul 27, 2010 3:03 pm

ive been on paxil 1/2 dose for 3weeks.full dose was to strong. dr. told me today to try taking 1/2 dose before bed, and 1/2 dose in the morning. will try this for a few days and hope it works.

hopefullartist · Post by **hopefullartist** » Tue Jul 27, 2010 3:12 pm

scruffy, i feel hopeless to sometimes, but i know its only hopeless if you give up. i believe were stronger than that! and as for crying, ive come to realize what it means when people say, "i have no tears left". maybe that means im ready to move on. i hope so. i hope you feel better soon. god bless you, and me!

hopefullartist · Post by **hopefullartist** » Tue Jul 27, 2010 3:27 pm

uluvnic, i know how you feel about no perpous in life, thats how depression makes you feel. dont listen to that negative voice in your head, put up the stop sign. and keep putting it up till that voice quietens down. glad your backs feeling better,with me its allergies.

hopefullartist · Post by **hopefullartist** » Tue Jul 27, 2010 3:36 pm

doriwaters,yes i can relate. i started a month ago, and i can really notice a differance in my thinking. some days are still tough, but i too have a way to go. hope things get better for us all, and may god bless us all with HIS help. best of luck.

uluvnic · Post by **uluvnic** » Wed Jul 28, 2010 4:22 pm

I don't know about anyone else, but just knowing that there are people out there that feel EXACTLY the same way I do is so comforting! I feel like less of a mental case. lol I just love how I can be open and honest without getting the recations from people I know. They never really know how to respond when I tell them I have depression and take medicine for it. And I HATE when people try to tell me it's all in my head or what do you have to be depressed about??? I'm like...you just don't get it. No one CHOOSES to be depressed. We just grew up not knowing that our own negative thoughts and reactions could cause it. I have to remind myself that now that I AM educated on what are major causes of depression, it is my choice on how I can think and react.

I'm kinda just rambling on b/c it's kinda soothing to just let out all my thoughts. I encourage you guys to do the same. This program is SUCH a blessing.

noname_2520 · Post by **noname_2520** » Wed Jul 28, 2010 5:46 pm

Originally posted by uluvnic:
I'm having a down time again where I see little purpose in life. Does anyone else feel that way? I'm trying to be excited about things but I'm just not. I think my depression has lifted while I'm in school because school is distracting me from it. Will someone pray that I love myself the way God designed us to? How can I love my neighbor when I barely love myself. I don't want to live a long life...and I feel like taking care of myself now is only to have a long life, but I don't see the point in living for a long time when I don't want children and don't even have a boyfriend, much less a husband. And then I think to myself, but I shouldn't take care of myself for others, I should take care of myself for me. But I don't really care about me. Sometimes all the positive talk in the world can't make me feel hopeful or excited. I hope this is a mood and it passes. Maybe I'm bipolar. At least if I was bipolar I'd be able to take meds to be ok. I wish someone had told me when I was younger that being happy is hard work.

Hey uluvnic: I know what you mean-I've been there too. I also asked how can I love others if i don't love myself? I actually put this question in a prayer to Jesus. I not only didn't love myself-I didn't like myself. I told God that I needed Him to reveal to me in some way how to love Him with all of my heart, mind, soul and strength 'cause than only will I be able to love others as myself. Which all of this is what He commands us to do and I would get so disappointed and start cutting myself down and no matter how positive I tried to get and having others (positive) around me it just didn't work. Till, I started reading and studying the Bible-studying about His love and the book of Romans (a Bible Study Guide on the book of Romans)which helped me alot and I mean alot and not just intellectually but also in my heart-my inner being. Beause remember what Hebrews 4:12 says: His Word is alve and full of power.It is sharper than any two-edged sword; it divides soul and spirit; and it judges the thoughts and purposes of the heart.;His Word is what changes us-our minds, behavior, actions all in this order. And also as we read and study the bible we develop a reltionsip with Him which is what being a Christian is all about-a relationship with Him and not religion . He gives us a new heart-Hs heart and His mind (which I ask for daily along with the power of His Spirit to conquer sin and also asking for His strength,etc-whatever I need that day which = are His promises to us). And also once we get to know Him(=realtionship by studying and reading His Word we are also wanting to live for Him and wanting to please Him which = He than becomes the center of our live=our core for living-purpose in life and also than we become an splitting image of Christ. Like a Son is a resemblance of His Father and not just by looking like him from the outside (his appearance) but by within (mind and heart)is where it all matters and the plus to me is the outer side (appearance) is like a bonus. For example: others are telling me you look happy, joyful, peaceful, always smiling and it's not fake, and even-"hey, you look really nice today and in that outfit" and I know it's because I have a real relationship with Him, and because He has changed my heart for it is He who took my heart of stone and gave me a heart of flesh. He also renewed my mind which so badly needed and is sill in progress will be till the day He comes back to get me and take me to His new Kingdom=my real home which is with Him-God the Father, Son and Holy Spirit forever in eternity-in His prescence. Now, which I definitely can say I am a new creation is Christ. I also pray this for you and everyone who reads this and logs onto this site-for I want everyone to be there with me-In His new Kingdom=our real home. Jesus came to save the world not to condemn it and God wants everyone to be saved that is why-"For God so greatly loved and dearly prized the world He gave up His only begotten(unique) Son, so that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life for God did not send the Son into the world in order to judge the world, that that the world might find salvation and be made safe and sound through Him. He who belives in Him is not judged;but he who does not believe is judged already because he has not believed in and trusted in the name of the only begotten Son of God." John 3:16-18.-----If you want I can mail you a copy of the Bible Study Guide-Book of Romans? This really helped me tremendously. I would be more than happy to mail it to you-especially if this will help you which i know and belive it will---Take care and may God bless you immensely, Enlarge your territory, may His Almighty hand be upon you and may He keep you from all evill in Jesus name-Amen. ------

Jupiter7

noname_2520 · Post by **noname_2520** » Wed Jul 28, 2010 5:58 pm

Originally posted by uluvnic:
I don't know about anyone else, but just knowing that there are people out there that feel EXACTLY the same way I do is so comforting! I feel like less of a mental case. lol I just love how I can be open and honest without getting the recations from people I know. They never really know how to respond when I tell them I have depression and take money for it. And I HATE when people try to tell me it's all in my head or what do you have to be depressed about??? I'm like...you just don't get it. No one CHOOSES to be depressed. We just grew up not knowing that our own negative thoughts and reactions could cause it. I have to remind myself that now that I AM educated on what are major causes of depression, it is my choice on how I can think and react.

I'm kinda just rambling on b/c it's kinda soothing to just let out all my thoughts. I encourage you guys to do the same. This program is SUCH a blessing.

------I totally agree

. The way people would look at me and the comments they would say all pointed to me as "crazy" and I would think because of their comments I must be so weird and why am i not normal like them,etc-the list goes on-now I accept myself as i am for God sure does for He is the one who created me in His own image

so why should i cut myself down so badly-and also got me thinking about how i must hurt God's heart so badly by saying and doing things that are not good for me. Besides, at some point everyone in their lives get depressed to some degree and also everyone get anxiety also to some degree and which is what Lucinda explains in the DVD. We are all human-no one is perfect. Some of us are just more prone to getting a little more depressed or are more high strung than others and that's nothing bad or should be embarrassed by it-It's what makes us special-unique

. Graciously-Jupiter7