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I have not posted in a long time, but don't have anyone to talk to, so I guess I am putting down my thoughts here.

Today just seems impossible. I am sad, hopeless, and just want to crawl into a dark hole. Part of my misery is self-inflicted, because I am not buckling down at work. I just have been over-whelmed and cannot seem to catch up. So, my answer has been to avoid doing what I should do, which is further exacerbating my problems. Add to that the economy and how it is going to pot, and I know that I have to work harder to keep my job.

I am also attending school - 3 courses until I finish my bachelor's degree I started 23 years ago. Have to give a presentation in class tonite, so that is kind of worrisome.

Just needed to get this out. Need to get back to work.

Hey Bob,
Yeah, its hard sometimes to kick yourself in the @#$! to get motivated at work, I dont have a boss looking over my shoulder all the time and so it makes it especially hard to motivate. They have cut my hours by two days here and so I can see how that adds to frustration. Good job on the upcoming BA, I remember I had to give a presentation for a biology class and I was totally worried about it too, I imagined the worst, and when it came time to stand up there, it all went fine, but it was funny the things that were going through my mind when i was up there. It takes a lot Bob to be as dedicated as you have been with getting your schooling done, GOOD JOB!!! Its great you came on here and posted. Im sorry you feel bad, but, know these kinds of feelings come and go, they dont have to pull you down. I guess we all have to just take a deep breath, put the Viking helmut on and go right through them, and find the smallest ways in the worst times to see the bright side, sometimes there isnt a bright side, it just plain sucks bad. But, you came on here today, and there are a lot of folks here that really know how you feel and sympathize. take care of yourself right now and eat right!

Hi Bob!
Hopelessness just seems part of the package of depression. I know how it feels. But there are times when you have felt optimistic and know that you will feel that again. I think it is remarkable that you are working and going to school at the same time. I know that would overwhelm me! I was in the hospital recently one of the other patients had a name for thinking ahead of all the things that can go wrong. She called it, "future tripping", and is something we all do. As Sierra said things that we worry about ahead of time usually don't turn out as badly as we had thought when the moment actually arrives. Think positive -- you will give a fine presentation tonight!

Hi Bob,
I totally relate to your feeling about needing to work harder in order to keep your job in these tough economic times. I have been feeling the same pressure as I have been watching people retire early or go to a different department and they are not being replaced. I have been thinking about going back to school myself to eventually change my career path to fulfill a dream I had as a kid that didn't work out. I am inspired by your dedication to get your degree even though it may have taken awhile. Best of luck to you! You need to give yourself the credit you deserve.