Posted: Fri Nov 27, 2009 4:46 pm
A little background first..
Until May 30,2008,I was Housebound Agoraphobic 5 + Years.A vast amount of that time,I was unable to step off my Front or back Porch.I did not get adequate fresh air,Sunlight or physical activity until I came out of the House.When Anxiety,PA's and Agoraphobia (non-Housebound) began at age 22,I became aware of my breathing.I developed a habitual ritual of taking frequent deep breaths,sighing,Yawning,and my Chest Muscles were taut.At times,my Muscles were so overtense I could not expand my Chest to take in Air,which further created Anxiety,Panic and fear..
For 3-4 Month's 4 Years ago,I had a lingering Cough and congestion in my Chest that finally subsided.I couldn't go to Doctor,because of my inability to Drive or ride in a Vehicle.I'm uncertain if the untreated Cough correlates to my subject line.When I feel SOB and have rapid breathing,there is no noted Cyanosis (blue coloring) of my Fingernails,Lips or Mouth.I never experience Chest pain,or pain radiating in Arm,Face or Neck (even when I had extreme Anxiety/Panic).
Early April this Year,I went to Emergency with a slightly elevated Blood Sugar.An ABG,Arterial Blood Gas was ordered to rule out DKA,Diabetic Ketoacidosis.The ABG returned normal with the exception of my HC03 being slightly elevated.At a recent routine Doctor's Appointment,my O2 Stat on room air was 97%..
I have re-gained 39 lbs over a 7 Month period,and most is in my upper Abdomen.This could be a contributing factor as well,because the extra Weight puts pressure on my Diaphragm..
My Biological Mother died from Cardiac Arrest,Tracheal Hemmorrhage,Pulmonary Embolism and venous congestion due 2 Pregnancy 1 Week and 4 Day's after my Birth.At first,Doctor's felt she had Pneumonia.
My Mother's eldest Sister suddenly died from Cardiac Arrest and Pulmonary Embolism after being misdiagnosed with Pneumonia.
My late Father had CHF,Congestive Heart Failure.At Diagnosis,it was mild,yet turned severe.As it advanced,I watched his struggles and fight for every breath.He died from Cardiac Arrest and Pulmonary Embolism.
It is a scary feeling having 3 Family members die from Cardiac Arrest and Pulmonary Embolism.
I am doing my best to not become scared,but my mind thinks about my Mother and Aunt,and returns to how my Father fought for breath.
I've lost 5 dear and close Family members in less than 10 Years,dealt with a thieving,greedy,selfish,self-centered and controlling Aunt and Sister in-law to my Father,had Relationships that painfully ended,Financial hardships and a few others which created grief and anger.
The Lung Meridian carries deep seeded memories of grief and loss that may be held back from issues of attachment and fixation.The Lungs hold grief.The emotion of the Lungs is Grief.There is also general agreement on this association.Breathing problems like Asthma indicate retained Grief.Frequent sighing or breathlessness can often be a sign of suppressed Anger.
Until May 30,2008,I was Housebound Agoraphobic 5 + Years.A vast amount of that time,I was unable to step off my Front or back Porch.I did not get adequate fresh air,Sunlight or physical activity until I came out of the House.When Anxiety,PA's and Agoraphobia (non-Housebound) began at age 22,I became aware of my breathing.I developed a habitual ritual of taking frequent deep breaths,sighing,Yawning,and my Chest Muscles were taut.At times,my Muscles were so overtense I could not expand my Chest to take in Air,which further created Anxiety,Panic and fear..
For 3-4 Month's 4 Years ago,I had a lingering Cough and congestion in my Chest that finally subsided.I couldn't go to Doctor,because of my inability to Drive or ride in a Vehicle.I'm uncertain if the untreated Cough correlates to my subject line.When I feel SOB and have rapid breathing,there is no noted Cyanosis (blue coloring) of my Fingernails,Lips or Mouth.I never experience Chest pain,or pain radiating in Arm,Face or Neck (even when I had extreme Anxiety/Panic).
Early April this Year,I went to Emergency with a slightly elevated Blood Sugar.An ABG,Arterial Blood Gas was ordered to rule out DKA,Diabetic Ketoacidosis.The ABG returned normal with the exception of my HC03 being slightly elevated.At a recent routine Doctor's Appointment,my O2 Stat on room air was 97%..
I have re-gained 39 lbs over a 7 Month period,and most is in my upper Abdomen.This could be a contributing factor as well,because the extra Weight puts pressure on my Diaphragm..
My Biological Mother died from Cardiac Arrest,Tracheal Hemmorrhage,Pulmonary Embolism and venous congestion due 2 Pregnancy 1 Week and 4 Day's after my Birth.At first,Doctor's felt she had Pneumonia.
My Mother's eldest Sister suddenly died from Cardiac Arrest and Pulmonary Embolism after being misdiagnosed with Pneumonia.
My late Father had CHF,Congestive Heart Failure.At Diagnosis,it was mild,yet turned severe.As it advanced,I watched his struggles and fight for every breath.He died from Cardiac Arrest and Pulmonary Embolism.
It is a scary feeling having 3 Family members die from Cardiac Arrest and Pulmonary Embolism.
I am doing my best to not become scared,but my mind thinks about my Mother and Aunt,and returns to how my Father fought for breath.
I've lost 5 dear and close Family members in less than 10 Years,dealt with a thieving,greedy,selfish,self-centered and controlling Aunt and Sister in-law to my Father,had Relationships that painfully ended,Financial hardships and a few others which created grief and anger.
The Lung Meridian carries deep seeded memories of grief and loss that may be held back from issues of attachment and fixation.The Lungs hold grief.The emotion of the Lungs is Grief.There is also general agreement on this association.Breathing problems like Asthma indicate retained Grief.Frequent sighing or breathlessness can often be a sign of suppressed Anger.
Well,I overcame by gathering all the strength,courage and bravery I possess.I had no choice but to walk out my front Door,walk down the walk and climb into a Car.My Drivers License needed renewed!!Though I still occasionally have Anticipatory Anxiety,I have been on the go ever since.What helps eleviate the AA is reading page 100 and 101 in Lucinda's Book "From Panic to Power"!It is empowering,really helps and puts things into perspective.Breathing has been fine,and yes,I feel it to be Anxiety.