I am starting the program over because I am noticing my anxiety is with me throughout the day. I am in constant worry about having a panic attack, probably because my first one was so traumatizing. I havn't had a panic attack in over a year or two. But I do get high levels of anxiety where I think it'll lead to a panic attack. My physical body symptoms that cause my anxiety are my stomach, gas in my stomach, gas stuck in my chest, and at rare times heart palpitations. I figure I do the online support forum because I did not use this to full advantage when I first bought the program. I also noticed that my emotions cause anxiety, esp. when I think about traumatizing memories and events. I find that the relaxation session is extremely difficult for me, because it causes even more anxiety. I know I have to be courageous and face the fear, eventually I'll get over it. I have so much on my plate right now, currently unemployed, alcohol and substance abuse, PTSD, and trying to impress my parents (which I realized is impossible but I still find myself feeling guilty over choices I made). My anxiety is moderate to high esp. at night. My psychiatrist put me on Prozac, and Clonazepam. I am currently trying to taper off the clonazepam by asking her to perscribe a lower dose and lower pill counts. I also feel that Prozac is causing more anxiety as opposed to when I was taking Celexa about two years ago. I take trazadone to help me achieve a deep full restful sleep. I am writing in hopes that I get the support I need online to stay on a healthy course i.e. (running, sleeping, meditation, practicing the relaxation session, staying away from negative friends, stay away from substances, and practicing more positivity in my life). I am looking to start school in Jan of 2014. My goal is to be whole, mentally, emotionally, and physically. I shall start the program over, and finish it this time, and I am just looking for support online to help me through this scary but necessary phase in my life.
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