On "house arrest"
Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2012 8:12 pm
Hi everyone! I just started the program yesterday and am excited. I retired 9 mos ago and been "house arrest" ever since. I used to look foward towards the day of retirement, but since my husband is still working, I have been miserable. You see, he works nights and leaves the house at 12:45 and returns at 10:50pm, so I am home alone. Alone with my thoughts! EEK! At first I would go out and try to get used to having the freedom of not working. WRONG! I was getting anxiety attacks in the stores or while driving. I had to get home where it was safe. I've been doctors and the ER, hoping for some help, hoping they would find something wrong with me and fix it. Of course there is nothing medically wrong. On Dec. 22, I had a bad one and called my daughter to come over and stay with me, but ended up going, once again, to the ER. They did the usual EKG, blood work. I figured that if anything should go haywire, at least I was in the ER and they could rescue me. The doctor came in and tells me the tests came back normal and that I am healthy. Am I going crazy? Then he tells me that I have "Panic, anxiety, depression disorder" Finally!! I could put a name to this craziness. He also "prescribed" StressCenter. I left feeling happy and relieved, at least for a little while. The cd's arrived on New Years Eve. So here I am, wondering how am I to excersize if I am afraid to leave the house? Can't go in the mornings because I cook lunch and dinner so he can to take to work. Is there anything I can do until I can get to town? Run in place.....?