Eye Opener

[Iwillbebetter]

All my life I wondered what was wrong with me. I remember in grade school, just about everynight, I could not get to sleep. I would lay down and my mind would just go,go,go. Normally it was about death or life after. I would scare myself not knowing what will happen after we pass. or different things like that. So I'd watch T.V. until I couldn't keep my eyes open. But asleep I could still not fall. I tried every trick I had heard of and NOTHING worked. So eventually I would get so frustrated I would just cry myself to sleep. I never felt like I "fit" in. In school I never picked a click as everyone else. I went from one to another to another. Although I knew a lot of people that was it I knew who they were not really them. So although I had a lot of friends I always felt so alone.
I NEVER understood this growing up. Always thought something was just wrong with me. So I've just learned to live with it. But after listening to the 1st session I almost fell out of my seat!!! It was undescribably amazing to hear her describe me and that it was ok and that I could get better as well!! Really could it be!! at that point I thought even if I don't get better, I was just happy enough to have a name "anxiety" to my life. Looking back I've had this since I can remember. I would say it's more of a general anxiety just always there!! But I now know and as they say knowing is 1/2 the battle!! and this is a battle I am ready to fight!!

** You can do anything you put your mind to **