Need a buddy!
Posted: Mon Jul 18, 2011 8:41 am
Hi everyone -
I am starting my first week with the program. I would like a buddy to work with from day 1 to the very last day of freedom! I am very determined, so I need a strong determined buddy. I am 49 years old, female, college professor, married, Christian, love sports, love family, love life, love humor, and strong-willed! I love old Doris Day movies and Disney World. Now for the good stuff. I have been suffering from anxiety all of my life. I had my first panic attack in 1989 and thought I had cured myself through Claire Weekes book "Hope and Help for your Nerves." I started have bladder pressure in March which escalated to other symptoms and the panic attacks started again. I keep my pelvic muscles so contracted all of the time that it causes these strange sensations all over my body. Especially, my bladder. Weird, huh! I began to obese about these symptoms and WHAM, the anxiety is back! With a vengence! After hearing Lucinda, I realize that I never really got over my anxiety. I just learned to deal with it. Now I have obessive thinking, depression (I'm also going through menopause), racing heart, "tight muscles," crying spells, I'm not interested in anything, and I am afraid to be alone sometimes. I can still drive, work, shop, etc., but I am still pretty miserable in my own little world. I just can't seem to run from my thoughts. I can't shut my brain off! I start a new teaching position at a new college in 3 weeks. Wow! I have been teaching for 4 years as a part-time college instructor and now I am taking the leap to full-time college professor of reading. I need to get this process started before I start my new job. I would love a new attitude to go along with my new job. I need a determined buddy who would like to correspond through this forum daily for support, laughter, sharing stories, etc. There are many layers to my anxiety, but that could take up several pages. If anyone is interested, I would like to count the days one by one. Just like the movie Julie and Julia.
I am starting my first week with the program. I would like a buddy to work with from day 1 to the very last day of freedom! I am very determined, so I need a strong determined buddy. I am 49 years old, female, college professor, married, Christian, love sports, love family, love life, love humor, and strong-willed! I love old Doris Day movies and Disney World. Now for the good stuff. I have been suffering from anxiety all of my life. I had my first panic attack in 1989 and thought I had cured myself through Claire Weekes book "Hope and Help for your Nerves." I started have bladder pressure in March which escalated to other symptoms and the panic attacks started again. I keep my pelvic muscles so contracted all of the time that it causes these strange sensations all over my body. Especially, my bladder. Weird, huh! I began to obese about these symptoms and WHAM, the anxiety is back! With a vengence! After hearing Lucinda, I realize that I never really got over my anxiety. I just learned to deal with it. Now I have obessive thinking, depression (I'm also going through menopause), racing heart, "tight muscles," crying spells, I'm not interested in anything, and I am afraid to be alone sometimes. I can still drive, work, shop, etc., but I am still pretty miserable in my own little world. I just can't seem to run from my thoughts. I can't shut my brain off! I start a new teaching position at a new college in 3 weeks. Wow! I have been teaching for 4 years as a part-time college instructor and now I am taking the leap to full-time college professor of reading. I need to get this process started before I start my new job. I would love a new attitude to go along with my new job. I need a determined buddy who would like to correspond through this forum daily for support, laughter, sharing stories, etc. There are many layers to my anxiety, but that could take up several pages. If anyone is interested, I would like to count the days one by one. Just like the movie Julie and Julia.