I feel like I am missing out on living!
Posted: Thu Jun 02, 2011 4:27 pm
Hi Everyone, I am brand new to the program. I bought the program a few years ago, and hid it away in my closet after I started taking multiple medications that helped a lot at first, now I am back to my old anxious depressed self and I want to fix this problem once and for all! I literally feel like I am missing out on my life, and I have to say it is a wonderful one!
My biggest problem is the obsessive scary thoughts that lead me into panic, which then depress me and I literally feel drained of energy and unable to do anything. Xanax has been very helpful, but I hate taking medication and I feel like a zombie with even LESS energy.
I honestly feel like a crazy person when I think about the worries that I have. They are at catastrophic levels relating to things I couldn't possibly control, but because I am always scared, I never want to do anything. I don't honestly even feel comfortable in my own home at times. I worry that the world is going to end, or that another terrorist attack will happen and I am not so much worried about dying, but surviving such things. The fallout of such a terrible occurrence would be something that I honestly don't feel like I would want to survive.
I hate feeling like this particularly because I have a 12 year old son, and an amazing boyfriend whom I enjoy being with so much. I want to go places, and do everything with them......live LIFE!
I am really looking forward to taking this 15 week journey, and I hope that this will help me to live in the now, and leave the worries behind!!
My biggest problem is the obsessive scary thoughts that lead me into panic, which then depress me and I literally feel drained of energy and unable to do anything. Xanax has been very helpful, but I hate taking medication and I feel like a zombie with even LESS energy.
I honestly feel like a crazy person when I think about the worries that I have. They are at catastrophic levels relating to things I couldn't possibly control, but because I am always scared, I never want to do anything. I don't honestly even feel comfortable in my own home at times. I worry that the world is going to end, or that another terrorist attack will happen and I am not so much worried about dying, but surviving such things. The fallout of such a terrible occurrence would be something that I honestly don't feel like I would want to survive.
I hate feeling like this particularly because I have a 12 year old son, and an amazing boyfriend whom I enjoy being with so much. I want to go places, and do everything with them......live LIFE!
I am really looking forward to taking this 15 week journey, and I hope that this will help me to live in the now, and leave the worries behind!!
I've been where you are at now. I am now off of antidepressants and do have Xanax available, but don't use it for the very reason you state. It makes you tired. They are handy for a panic attack, but I haven't had a full blown panic since last year and I only had recently experienced the first panic attack a month prior. 