Just starting up again...

[shouldbegrateful]

Hello all~ I have decided to start my program from the beginning again. I purchased this program around the beginning of the year and listened to some of the CD's in my car as I commuted. I did notice a difference in how I reacted to things but I did not commit myself fully to the entire program. I didn't journal the way I should have, or finish the workbook before moving on to the next topic. It was like I was eager for the information, but now I see that I was eager to feel better NOW!!! We all know the problem with that. The solution never sticks quite the same. I have found a renewed devotion to healing myself as I am realizing how quickly life is going by and how much of it I am wasting stuck in my own head, convinced that I am dying young. It is almost as if I have given up already and am just waiting for time to eat me up. I am distancing myself from my life, never in the present moment constantly waiting for something, anything, to explain or resolve how I am feeling and why. I am ready to rejoin my life. I listened to the first CD again yesterday and I think it was "Ken" who said something that included "I'm not gonna live like this anymore". I really connected with everything he says in group on session one ~ I struggle with hypochondria on a daily basis and it is consuming me. I am ready, wish me luck and I hope to go through this with great peer support group.

shouldbegrateful

[PB2704]

Hi - I am a newcomer - on session 3and am giving it a lot of work and time... I do have some very real life issues to tackle and in the past I have always made decisions out of fear and "what if" thinking... I have not been HAPPY since 2004 when I lost a good job. I have settled for low paying survival jobs since. I have convinced myself it is hopeless for me, I stress constantly and rehearse conversations with people I know and wonder what they are thinking - in order to EXPLAIN wy I am the way I am.

nyway - good luck to you on starting up again! If you have any tips for stopping negative thinking and replacing it i;d love to know them!

[GeorgiaMtnMutts]

I'm same way about being happy since I can't work anymore at all, and had to give up great paying job. Funny thing is, though I loved some aspects of it and the money, of course, it wasn't really what I wanted to do, so it is probably a good thing to make a change! But all the bills, etc. really make me panic, and not working (on disability now) to be able to fix it, is a total out of control feeling.
Good luck with the program - hope we both get answers!