Stress Center Peer Support

Hi Everyone...New to this new program which includes Depression. Used this program 20 yrs. ago but it didn't have a section on depression, which is my main problem. Basically it saved my life. I know it works! But like they said, anxiety fuels depression or visa-versa. They go hand in hand. I guess the thing that stands out for me right now is my fear of crossing a bridge that takes me to the city which is a sixty second drive! Thats right, sixty seconds to cross that bridge to freedom. Dinner, movies, appts, errands, friends, family, parks, shopping, etc. Silly, huh? But what it is, for me, about that bridge is I had one of the worst panic attacks I've ever experienced on that bridge. I just dropped my aunt off at the airport and was by myself. As I approched the bridge, I physically felt I was going to pass out going 60 mph..my eyes got heavy, my breathing was shallow, I was hyperventalating, feeling nauseous...omg, the whole deal was happening, all within seconds. There was no lane to pull over in, in my rear view mirror there was 20 cars going as fast as I was and all I wanted to do was get out of the car, and I couldn't. I knew I was going to cause a huge accident and hurt someone else, much less myself. I made it over, barely and pulled into the first driveway in my sight and sat there crying and angry and couldn't believe I did that. That was 14 months ago and I haven't crossed that bridge, by myself, since. I know why it happened. I wanted to go with my aunt. I don't like where I live. I don't have family here, my family. The bridge led back to a place where I didn't want to be, don't want to be. I have no control over my life on this side of the bridge. It's not me, it's all him, my husband. His town, his family, his life. Nothing is mine. But those are a whole slew of other issues yet to be dealt with. I felt safe with my aunt and life here is scary and uncertain, constantly. I need to be my safe place. I get that. It's my self talk. I get that its me and not the bridge, I even get it's not my husband either. But, I do not and I mean DO NOT want to feel that way ever again. How do you get over that?