dear Cory :Welcome to this "thread"
.
I am so sorry to hear about your troubles.
I am 51 years old and single and had a bad mental breakdown on April 6, 2007.
I guess April is a bad month for me too
.
During the past three years I have been living off of my severance pay ( gone now ),
my retirement money ( gone now ), and unemployment insurance benefits ( 3 more
months of benefits before this is gone too ). My health insurance just expired.
My sister is actually helping to support me
financially at this time until
I can find a job or until I can qualify for social security disability.
I don't feel that my family supports me emotionally one bit. My sister would offer me money before she
would let me live with her and the same goes for my mom. No one really wants me
to live at their house.That makes me feel sad
. If my dad were still alive I would always have
somewhere to call my home. I know he would let me live in his condo if he was still here.
My sister and mom just don't understand the severity of my situation, that I COULD become
homeless.
Although my sister says that this won't happen, she just doesn't understand that I
could lose everything I have. My mom is retired and elderly and living on Social Security and
has a condo that she lives in. She has told me that I cannot live with her. Thanks for the support mom.
I am stuck in a tiny little apartment in a ghetto apartment complex.
I had a decent one bedroom place on the east end of town until I lost my job due to the economy.
If anyone tells you that there are more jobs out there and that the economy is improving, they are just
not telling the truth. It is still the toughest job market out there right now, ever
.
Since I moved into my tiny apartment I have feared for my life because a year and a half
ago there was a murder ( a guy was gunned down, shot four times ) in the parking lot right
here near my apartment. I never heard sounds as loud as those four shots
. When I mention
the murder to my sister she just keeps referring to a murder that took place in the house
next to hers. When I mention the murder to her I mention it as a way of me saying that:
"I am afraid to live here". I hate having to be afraid for my own life because I lost my job and
I couldn't afford to live in my decent, old neighborhood.
I am on the Clonazepam, along with other psyche drugs.
I am trying to wean myself off of the Clonazepam. I am already taking
a pretty low dose. Have you ever tried to go off of the Clonazepam? I heard it was difficult
to go off of. So, you take Ativan AND Clonazepam every day ? Anyhow, I am rambling on here
when I really wanted to tell you that
in some ways I know how you feel.
Stay strong and keep in touch.
PS: I am working the program for the second time and I am on Session Six and I just
read Luncinda's book FROM PANIC TO POWER.
Lynda