Struggling Again
Posted: Wed Mar 16, 2022 9:07 pm
I made it for months without anxiety but I did end up quitting the program . I had to stop the supplements I was taking because we couldn't afford them but I felt fine. Then about a month ago my 19 year old son started experiencing depression so I started with him at week 1 and we have been doing the program together. We are currently on week 4 and my son has been feeling better since week 2.
Unfortunately for me though, everything has suddenly come back and I don't know why. I can't seem to pinpoint any specific thoughts or fears. The general anxiety came back on Saturday even though I have been doing the program without anxiety for 4 weeks. None of the steps help. I'm not even scared of panic attacks. I had one last night and I just walked around the house until it passed and I didn't really care, it is the constant feeling of fear in my stomach along with brain fog and fatigue that bothers me. I struggle to do anything but sit on the couch. I can't paint, play board games, or do anything that I usually do because of the strong feeling like I need to get away from the fear so I just can't focus long enough to do anything.
I'm also back to not sleeping (lying awake for hours feeling awake with racing thoughts and energy). I don't fall asleep until early morning again so I am back in that cycle. Only this time when I wake up the anxiety is still there.
I just keep doing all of the daily steps - meditate, the relaxation tape, the breathing exercises, listening to the sessions. I think I listen to the sessions way more than necessary because I could practically recite portions from memory. I'm not sure what else to try at this point. I am hoping there will be something in a future session that will make a difference since I have never made it that far before.
Unfortunately for me though, everything has suddenly come back and I don't know why. I can't seem to pinpoint any specific thoughts or fears. The general anxiety came back on Saturday even though I have been doing the program without anxiety for 4 weeks. None of the steps help. I'm not even scared of panic attacks. I had one last night and I just walked around the house until it passed and I didn't really care, it is the constant feeling of fear in my stomach along with brain fog and fatigue that bothers me. I struggle to do anything but sit on the couch. I can't paint, play board games, or do anything that I usually do because of the strong feeling like I need to get away from the fear so I just can't focus long enough to do anything.
I'm also back to not sleeping (lying awake for hours feeling awake with racing thoughts and energy). I don't fall asleep until early morning again so I am back in that cycle. Only this time when I wake up the anxiety is still there.
I just keep doing all of the daily steps - meditate, the relaxation tape, the breathing exercises, listening to the sessions. I think I listen to the sessions way more than necessary because I could practically recite portions from memory. I'm not sure what else to try at this point. I am hoping there will be something in a future session that will make a difference since I have never made it that far before.