Restarting the Program - Intro
Posted: Thu Dec 05, 2019 12:08 pm
Hello, everyone. My name is Sara. I have done some amazing things with the help of this program. For example, I met the man of my dreams, moved from California to Texas, been on multiple cruises to Alaska (among other vacations), got married, bought a house, etc. Unfortunately, I have reached a new plateau in my life at age 36 and I fell back into my old negative habits, so the anxiety and depression returned. It probably did not help that I was trying to get off the medication (Paxil), which I've been on for over a decade. I never quite finished the program the first time, but this time around I am determined to see it through to the end of Session 15 and hopefully rid myself of severe anxiety and depression once and for all. I've made it to session 4 so far. The hardest challenge for me is dealing with anticipatory anxiety for just about any event or activity outside of my comfort zone, and over the course of the past year or so my comfort zone has gotten pretty small. As a full-time worker, wife, and house-keeper, I have also lost sight of my personal goals and dreams, and become stagnate, losing interest in hobbies and not wanting to try new things. Meanwhile, my husband is the opposite of me, he has a lot of hobbies, and he is progressing with his education and career. It's hard not to compare myself and my lack of motivation with my spouse who is so motivated and proactive. Life is not a race, but I feel stuck in a rut and it's hard to express happiness for my husband, when I am beating myself down with a stick.