Ugh! I was doing so well.....
Posted: Sun Jul 07, 2013 12:24 am
Hi. I'm Angie. I had a lot of anxiety and I went through the program (twice! ) It helped so much the first time when Lucinda said do it again I wasn't going to argue with her. It gave me the strength to leave my very safe dead-end job and go to grad school while working part-time as an intern for a company.
I knew all of this would produce anxiety, but man! We're talking serious growth spurts here. My first session of school was pretty rough emotionally. I had myself convinced my brain couldn't write a term paper anymore. Total negative thinking- flooding in on myself. After all that, I got through it with an A-.
I've had a lot of anxiety at work. I want to do the best job I can and I worry I'm not fast enough or that I'm going to make a mistake. My boss can be impatient and demanding.
I've gotten the tapes out and I have been listening to them over and over again. I cut caffeine out again. I'm journaling. This job still has me stressed. I'm trying to just feel the fear and do it anyway. I'm really trying to get trough it. I'm disappointed that I had made such progress and I slipped back into old habits so easily. I had gotten so strong and now I feel like such a hot mess. I'll listen to a tape and it will make me feel better. I just really long for the strength I felt before I left my safety bubble.
Any advice?
I knew all of this would produce anxiety, but man! We're talking serious growth spurts here. My first session of school was pretty rough emotionally. I had myself convinced my brain couldn't write a term paper anymore. Total negative thinking- flooding in on myself. After all that, I got through it with an A-.
I've had a lot of anxiety at work. I want to do the best job I can and I worry I'm not fast enough or that I'm going to make a mistake. My boss can be impatient and demanding.
I've gotten the tapes out and I have been listening to them over and over again. I cut caffeine out again. I'm journaling. This job still has me stressed. I'm trying to just feel the fear and do it anyway. I'm really trying to get trough it. I'm disappointed that I had made such progress and I slipped back into old habits so easily. I had gotten so strong and now I feel like such a hot mess. I'll listen to a tape and it will make me feel better. I just really long for the strength I felt before I left my safety bubble.
Any advice?