Stress Center Peer Support

For the last couple of weeks I hav'nt been doing to well. I think I got a little in over my head so to speak w/ ordering Lucinda's new program. I think I'm still a little green to hear that one just yet. So now I'm just all over the place w/ my emotins and not knowing what to do.
I have stayed home since thursday. i could'nt even take my girls to school on friday. My husband had to go in late to his job because I could'nt take them. It makes me feel like I'm a child!
I'm so worried that my girls are going to remember me as a very "weak" person. Not a good role model that's for sure.
I also got the "sensitive child" cd this week. I was hoping it would give me and my oldest daughter some skills to help her...like the program does but it really does'nt.
I feel like I'm searching for reasurance or something....I don't know??? I know in "my head" I have got to believe in myself. It's another thing to really believe it. My self esteem is so not there.
I want to be so much more than I am right now. It's been so long since I have worked. The few jobs I've had since being married have not worked out because of my anxiety. I was so independant before I met my Husband! I worked, I pumped my own gas heck..I even checked the oil in my car and put it in!!!! That seems like a life time ago......
My husband treats me so good. i feel guilty to even say this but he does so much for me that it has made me very dependant on him and in away I think he likes that. I have talked to him a little about this...but not much though. I know that can't be a healthy relationship.
Well,I feel better just getting this all out. Maybe that's what I needed to do.....

I am so sorry to hear you have been feeling bad. I wish I had a magic answer for you. All I can say is that I can feel your pain. It does get better. I know it has for me. Sometimes I have set backs and this past week was one of them. Hope next week is much better. How long have you had anxiety?

hey karenleigh..
it is a season..it will pass...i was so independant and married a wonderful compassionate man who adored me. my aniexty and depression and dependance on him has gotten extreme as over the past year i had a brain anursym and had brain surgery and almost died this gave me major panic every time i had the a strange feeling and i couldnt stand him out of my site for months. you will over come. read alot..do not loose your fight...you can do this program..i'm stuck in week 3 started 4 then went back...it was really really hard for me as well..but it will help..keep pressing through..you can do all things through Christ who strengtens you!! You will get you back... I battled what your feelingoff and on for the last 30 years and i find this the best program i have worked yet!! you can do it...believe in yourself...you can..you can.. it WILL get better..i wouldnt drive, wouldnt leave the house, didnt work either and am making great strides. remember DANCE IN THE RAIN AND KEEP ON AND YOU WILL FIND YOUR RAINBOW>>>I PROMISE!! believe you can...i know you can.. i have been at the lowest point and it will always pass with enough time but finding this program and being dedicated to working it can and will make us be able to live normal productive lives and have peace in our souls..read a positive book..if you need a break from this, I love Joel Osteens Your Best Life Now!! It is great!! You will overcome this. Promise!!

Naustin, Thank's for the reply. Sometimes it helps knowing your not alone in this battle. i have had anxiety since I was 15 now I'm 37. I hope next week is better for you too...take-care

Teresa, thanks for the encouraging words. I'm so sorry about what happened to you. I hope this year will be so much better for you. You sound like a couragous women...to have gone thru such a trumatic experience.
I was stuck in #3 for 2 weeks! So I know how that feels. There have been alot who have posted about session 3 being hard so don't beat yourself up if you don't get it all.
Thanks for the scripture...I know this isn't the spiritual forum. I hope I don't offend anybody but I feel like the worst Christian there is...I know...negative.

maybe I can talk to you again in there(spiritual forum).
Take-care

i think when we start depending on others it becomes a worry because well for me i feel like the control i have isnt there anymore dont get me wrong we cant do everything ourselves and having children myself i understand how hard it can be luckily for me my husband isnt very wise to up keep of things didnt even know how to start the lawn mower before i showed him hahah i do love him but i love being able to do certain things i do believe you will be ok we sometimes go through tough patches but i also feel i get strength from my children to be able to do things i was never able to do before i hope things start going better for you real soon maki