Anyone Suffer Chronic Pain?
Posted: Sun Jul 01, 2018 9:17 pm
I know I am probably writing a lot of posts today. My kindle is old and Wi-Fi in area not good so Some days I cannot boot up to get online too log in. Today working well.
I know its a long-shot, I see its been about 2 years since anyone posted on this forum, hoping to get replies....but then again hate too see others in pain. Two and a half years ago I took a very bad fall in our garage...nothing broken x-rays said, Doctor said I would recover eventually. Unfortunately that did not happen. I moderately tore my meniscus and hurt my back. Surgery was not an option, because the tear has such a limited blood flow, very bad for healing, most people get worse!? Also I was 54 years old and not thin..and the fact my mother and uncle died in surgery scared me too death too have surgery. Why risk worse pain or death? Tried to learn to live with it.
That did not work out for me so well. Too protect my had knee and too "protect it" I walked(waddled) differently. Putting pressure on good knee, now that one is bad, my knee would "lock up" for hours. Still I went on, tried too live with it. I started taking Ibuprofen, or motrin or alleve, they tore my stomach up, so had to go off, now all I have is low dose tylenol, and truth be told it dies not really help at all, lately it makes me queasy, which it never did, worry about my liver, I may try some vitamin D, the pain is unbearable when I walk, I walk with walker, its a little better when sitting, and it seems to go away when I lie in bed with pillow between my knees..most relief, but Im spending WAY too much time in bed.....and I know its to avoid the panic, brutal pain and fear of dying...when Im sleeping I am not thinking about how my life is.
My husband is furious with my deterioration, my child, whom I love dearly confused, I try too hide it from him. I feel my pain, my mouth in need of dentures, and fear of dying because I feel so bad everyday is hindering my progress frim the program. I did the program twice before...but I was younger, thinner, no pain and love and support from family and friends. Many have distanced themselves from me, my own sister called me a 'physical and emotional cripple" and told me she cannot talk too me any more, that really hurt, on top of my husbands frustration, Im deeply depressed.
If anyone out there is dealing with a physical condition, whatever it may be...how you are handling it, coping and surviving. I would love too hear from you. I am basically housebound, on a walker so the agoraphobia is rough, I cant leave too see Doctor, thank goodness for PA who will come too me, insurance covers nothing anyway! I am praying very hard all of us can reclaim our lives and enjoy life, if even a little bit, fighting physical AND emotional pain is so very hard. Thank you, GOD bless you.
I know its a long-shot, I see its been about 2 years since anyone posted on this forum, hoping to get replies....but then again hate too see others in pain. Two and a half years ago I took a very bad fall in our garage...nothing broken x-rays said, Doctor said I would recover eventually. Unfortunately that did not happen. I moderately tore my meniscus and hurt my back. Surgery was not an option, because the tear has such a limited blood flow, very bad for healing, most people get worse!? Also I was 54 years old and not thin..and the fact my mother and uncle died in surgery scared me too death too have surgery. Why risk worse pain or death? Tried to learn to live with it.
That did not work out for me so well. Too protect my had knee and too "protect it" I walked(waddled) differently. Putting pressure on good knee, now that one is bad, my knee would "lock up" for hours. Still I went on, tried too live with it. I started taking Ibuprofen, or motrin or alleve, they tore my stomach up, so had to go off, now all I have is low dose tylenol, and truth be told it dies not really help at all, lately it makes me queasy, which it never did, worry about my liver, I may try some vitamin D, the pain is unbearable when I walk, I walk with walker, its a little better when sitting, and it seems to go away when I lie in bed with pillow between my knees..most relief, but Im spending WAY too much time in bed.....and I know its to avoid the panic, brutal pain and fear of dying...when Im sleeping I am not thinking about how my life is.
My husband is furious with my deterioration, my child, whom I love dearly confused, I try too hide it from him. I feel my pain, my mouth in need of dentures, and fear of dying because I feel so bad everyday is hindering my progress frim the program. I did the program twice before...but I was younger, thinner, no pain and love and support from family and friends. Many have distanced themselves from me, my own sister called me a 'physical and emotional cripple" and told me she cannot talk too me any more, that really hurt, on top of my husbands frustration, Im deeply depressed.
If anyone out there is dealing with a physical condition, whatever it may be...how you are handling it, coping and surviving. I would love too hear from you. I am basically housebound, on a walker so the agoraphobia is rough, I cant leave too see Doctor, thank goodness for PA who will come too me, insurance covers nothing anyway! I am praying very hard all of us can reclaim our lives and enjoy life, if even a little bit, fighting physical AND emotional pain is so very hard. Thank you, GOD bless you.