Chronic sickness and surgeries
I have high blood pressure, and I am obese, but I think what bothers me most of all, is that by listening to others and the tapes is that all the illnesses and surgeries that I have had has been my fault. I look back at my 2 knee surgeries,gallbladder, hystorectomy, 2 sinus, 4 ear, vertibrae fusion, cyst removal, and all the mri's, cat scans, blood test, etc. is somewhat my fault. My anxiety and depression has brought on the majority of these syptoms. I am afraid I will spend the rest of my life in surgery. I also feel and tell myself, that I have had more surgeries than most have and if 1 in 1000 people die in surgery, I will sooner or later die in surgery because i have had so many.