Today is a tough one!
Posted: Fri Mar 04, 2011 9:31 am
Yesterday i told you of my cake episode, so today i will tell you why i had so many sweets. My family knows how much i love sweets and obviously did not talk amongst themselves regarding my birthday (today) and so each of them brought me sweets. Had to taste each, didnt want to hurt feelings. Yeah Yeah.....
So today i woke up anxious, my stomach feeling horrid. I just really dont like to celebrate my birthday anymore. 14 years ago my youngest son, Tyler, was hospitalized for his second bonemarrow transplant. We all thought the first one had worked, he was tested and found it to be 100% donor. But 9 months later it had returned. We all were pretty positive as he had gone through it once and done really well. 18 days later on my husbands birthday he was diagnosed with aspergillus (fungus) in his lung. Not a good thing, but they started treatment and days later he had surgery to remove it. That was successful, except for the recover. My baby was in so much pain it was unbearable. The docs had trouble getting the pain meds right because of all the other meds he was on and his age. Soon he was Tyler again and my husband and i shared some fun evenings with him playing games, building models and watching movies. Then we were told that the fungus had moved to his brain and there was nothing they could do. A few days later he quietly went to be with Jesus. I have to tell you a wonderful story about his departure. He was not really clear when he spoke, but every once in awhile he would sit up and say something clear as could be. This one time he sat up and asked if when he went home, could he take his angel with him. I miss him so much and celebrate today with him because he loved life and lived it to the fullest.
Thank you all for being here and letting me have these moments.
CJ
So today i woke up anxious, my stomach feeling horrid. I just really dont like to celebrate my birthday anymore. 14 years ago my youngest son, Tyler, was hospitalized for his second bonemarrow transplant. We all thought the first one had worked, he was tested and found it to be 100% donor. But 9 months later it had returned. We all were pretty positive as he had gone through it once and done really well. 18 days later on my husbands birthday he was diagnosed with aspergillus (fungus) in his lung. Not a good thing, but they started treatment and days later he had surgery to remove it. That was successful, except for the recover. My baby was in so much pain it was unbearable. The docs had trouble getting the pain meds right because of all the other meds he was on and his age. Soon he was Tyler again and my husband and i shared some fun evenings with him playing games, building models and watching movies. Then we were told that the fungus had moved to his brain and there was nothing they could do. A few days later he quietly went to be with Jesus. I have to tell you a wonderful story about his departure. He was not really clear when he spoke, but every once in awhile he would sit up and say something clear as could be. This one time he sat up and asked if when he went home, could he take his angel with him. I miss him so much and celebrate today with him because he loved life and lived it to the fullest.
Thank you all for being here and letting me have these moments.
CJ