Posted: Sun Dec 21, 2008 11:37 am
I have been trying to finish up the program for the last couple of weeks. I have been stuck on session 14 for the last two weeks. I finally get a groove going, then I stop doing anything for a couple of days. I'm so close to finishing the program, but I feel like I'm avoiding it and procrastinating with it.
In session 14 I have been experiencing panic attacks, anxiety and anxious episodes. Lately, I've been obsessing over pain. Particularly, pain associated with childbirth. I love kids and I would like to try to have a child within the next year. My fear of pain, is causing me to doubt my ability to be able to cope with the pain of childbirth. I'm so afraid that I am considering adoption instead of giving birth. I feel like I'm being a coward and not facing my fears. I'm so terrified of the pain, that it is causing me to think of other alternatives.
I recently had surgery for endometriosis. I obsessed over the pain associated with this surgery. I obsessed over the iv, I obsessed over the anesthesia. I really felt that I was going to lose my mind worrying about the surgery. I got through the surgery and hopefully it was successful. I really feel that If I want children, I should face my fears and have them. I'm just feeling that if I had a hard time undergoing surgery for endometriosis, how am I going to react to the pain associated with childbirth.
Can anyone relate to what I am feeling and saying?
In session 14 I have been experiencing panic attacks, anxiety and anxious episodes. Lately, I've been obsessing over pain. Particularly, pain associated with childbirth. I love kids and I would like to try to have a child within the next year. My fear of pain, is causing me to doubt my ability to be able to cope with the pain of childbirth. I'm so afraid that I am considering adoption instead of giving birth. I feel like I'm being a coward and not facing my fears. I'm so terrified of the pain, that it is causing me to think of other alternatives.
I recently had surgery for endometriosis. I obsessed over the pain associated with this surgery. I obsessed over the iv, I obsessed over the anesthesia. I really felt that I was going to lose my mind worrying about the surgery. I got through the surgery and hopefully it was successful. I really feel that If I want children, I should face my fears and have them. I'm just feeling that if I had a hard time undergoing surgery for endometriosis, how am I going to react to the pain associated with childbirth.
Can anyone relate to what I am feeling and saying?