Need some advice (desperately)
Posted: Tue Aug 09, 2011 4:04 pm
Hello everyone!
I'm a 23 year-old girl. This is the second time I've done the Combatting Stress and Depression Program program since I've been told
it's a good idea to go through it again. I didn't have a severe case of anxiety but I went overseas to Paris, France to do my medical school studies alone so probably since I was used to (being an only child) being taken care of constantly by my parents. I've been living there for 5 years. My life is pretty good even though I have to study really hard and have many responsibilities at the hospital. The program opened my eyes and helped me get through rough times and I'm very grateful for it.
However, I still have a silly fear that I just can't get over.
It concerns love. It's probably a very common thing but it's just that I feel as if I'm cursed in love, that I'll end up living alone with 9 smelly cats in a stuffy old apartment. It started 6 years ago when a boy I really loved broke my heart. I got over him but every time I like a guy and he seems interested too, he ends up being a jerk or he never has the courage to really court me. The other boys are either really good friends or I'm not interested in them. I've never had a real relationship and it's not easy seeing couples all around me looking happy and all.
Maybe I am too picky but I can't be with a boy I'm not attracted to and I don't want to do all the pursuing either.
I know there's nothing wrong with me but I don't have a very high self-esteem which is something I can't help. Most people say to try not to think about this and the right guy will come but it's easier said than done...
It'd be really great if someone could give me some advice on how I could put an end to this thought once and for all. I really don't want to have this fear anymore. Maybe I need a new perspective on things.
Thanks ^_^
I'm a 23 year-old girl. This is the second time I've done the Combatting Stress and Depression Program program since I've been told
it's a good idea to go through it again. I didn't have a severe case of anxiety but I went overseas to Paris, France to do my medical school studies alone so probably since I was used to (being an only child) being taken care of constantly by my parents. I've been living there for 5 years. My life is pretty good even though I have to study really hard and have many responsibilities at the hospital. The program opened my eyes and helped me get through rough times and I'm very grateful for it.
However, I still have a silly fear that I just can't get over.
It concerns love. It's probably a very common thing but it's just that I feel as if I'm cursed in love, that I'll end up living alone with 9 smelly cats in a stuffy old apartment. It started 6 years ago when a boy I really loved broke my heart. I got over him but every time I like a guy and he seems interested too, he ends up being a jerk or he never has the courage to really court me. The other boys are either really good friends or I'm not interested in them. I've never had a real relationship and it's not easy seeing couples all around me looking happy and all.
Maybe I am too picky but I can't be with a boy I'm not attracted to and I don't want to do all the pursuing either.
I know there's nothing wrong with me but I don't have a very high self-esteem which is something I can't help. Most people say to try not to think about this and the right guy will come but it's easier said than done...
It'd be really great if someone could give me some advice on how I could put an end to this thought once and for all. I really don't want to have this fear anymore. Maybe I need a new perspective on things.
Thanks ^_^