Aha moment!!
Posted: Thu Mar 31, 2011 4:36 am
I think I had an aha moment yesterday.
As usual when I'm out taking a walk I listen to one of the tapes and yesterday I choosed the courage to change tape. When I heared Lucinda talk about resistence to change I thought about for the 50th time what mine could be and I thought about when all this anxiety and depression started.
I have always been the shy girl since I was little and when I moved from my parents house to my own place I had to grow up and take responsibility for my life. My mother and big sister has always taken care of me (my father was an alcoholic so I didn't get much help from him). As I joke I often say that I wonder what I will do when I grow up. I'm 34 years old, I'm married and have a girl that is 2,5 years old.
I am grown up and need to see me as a grown up!!!
I think this is my resistence to change!!! If I don't feel grown up and I'm dependent of my mother and my husband I can blame the anxiety that I don't take my own decisions or I can blame someone else if it's not working out or is the wrong decision.
Now I just need to figure out how to start changing.
Anyone have some suggestions how to get started?
Thanks for all inspiration you all give me. // Didde
As usual when I'm out taking a walk I listen to one of the tapes and yesterday I choosed the courage to change tape. When I heared Lucinda talk about resistence to change I thought about for the 50th time what mine could be and I thought about when all this anxiety and depression started.
I have always been the shy girl since I was little and when I moved from my parents house to my own place I had to grow up and take responsibility for my life. My mother and big sister has always taken care of me (my father was an alcoholic so I didn't get much help from him). As I joke I often say that I wonder what I will do when I grow up. I'm 34 years old, I'm married and have a girl that is 2,5 years old.
I am grown up and need to see me as a grown up!!!
I think this is my resistence to change!!! If I don't feel grown up and I'm dependent of my mother and my husband I can blame the anxiety that I don't take my own decisions or I can blame someone else if it's not working out or is the wrong decision.
Now I just need to figure out how to start changing.
Anyone have some suggestions how to get started?
Thanks for all inspiration you all give me. // Didde