Hello everyone! I'm back!
Thank you Paislee, Forever Young, and Mike for your thoughts and prayers!
The whole thing was a tough deal. I feel drained and had a wild couple days. On Sunday we went 1:45 trip to calling hours. I was pretty nervous but knew I had to do it. I did pretty good. There were alot of people who I have not seen for several years and that was a good distraction for me. In the mean time my sister found a new job and had to start training on Monday. She was nervous about both things. Her training is very close where we went to calling hours. The trip had me & my husband and my sister and dear mother in the back seat! LOL... It was pretty good. ( mom took zanax....lol....)
When we got home I discovered I left my purse!!!! Check book, cc cards, drivers license everything! OK no big deal I will get it Monday! Monday am flood city! My mother called me, she lives in a trailer (park 55 plus ) and a man was there with a boat to rescue her and her cat!!! She wanted to know weather to get in or not????? OMG
Needless to say I could not go to the funeral nor could she. My husband went to work and my sister started her new job. About 2:00Pm the water subsided and mom could go home. Not much damage considering what it could have been. It ripped some skirting up and left garbage everywhere but that is doable. Now started the guilt! I missed the funeral. Cousins and Aunts & Uncles came from other states and I live in the same one and could not go. Then came to the purse issue and how can I make a connection with someone to get it.
Short version, I got my purse, only drove 45 mins. there and back but its all over. I can start to get over all of it.
I didn't eat right, sleep right, at times think right and I can certainly tell the difference. I started with a good meal today.
I woke up with my stomach hurting, I knew my IBS was kicking up. I went right to my relaxation and breathing and it helped 90%. I knew if necessary I had my xanax but I was able to control it with my mind.
Many times I was cornered by people telling me all their problems, and felt many times light headed where I stuck close to the wall, or sat down. It is amazing to feel these symptoms, recognize them and float with them. They really do pass though it is a challenge. I made it though...better than I would have done a year ago. I may of not even went last year.