Posted: Tue Jan 04, 2011 5:21 am
Hi
I've realized some of my resistances to practicing the skills and doing what I need to do to get out of this condition completely..
I procrastinate and resist writing in my journal.
I've noticed that I'm constantly thinking of other things I need to do, or I'm too tired to write in my journal (I like to write in it at night).
I've realized that with the whole journal thing, I have in the back of my mind the thought..what would someone think if they read this? I can't write that..I shouldn't write that..What if someone read it, what would they think?
It's like I have this inner editor on all the time, and I struggle to turn it off. No one around me would ever read my journal, but I don't know..I just have this in the back of my mind. The people I write about and what I say (not that it's even bad things) but just my thoughts about them..My mind says "geeze if they knew I was writing this right now, they would think I was so weird.
But I know I have to write in it because through applying the skills in the program, I keep having "aha moments" and new realizations all the time, and I know I need to write them down. I feel like I have a lot in my mind that needs out, but I still struggle with the "inner editor."
Has anyone else had this struggle?
Thanks for reading :p
I've realized some of my resistances to practicing the skills and doing what I need to do to get out of this condition completely..
I procrastinate and resist writing in my journal.
I've noticed that I'm constantly thinking of other things I need to do, or I'm too tired to write in my journal (I like to write in it at night).
I've realized that with the whole journal thing, I have in the back of my mind the thought..what would someone think if they read this? I can't write that..I shouldn't write that..What if someone read it, what would they think?
It's like I have this inner editor on all the time, and I struggle to turn it off. No one around me would ever read my journal, but I don't know..I just have this in the back of my mind. The people I write about and what I say (not that it's even bad things) but just my thoughts about them..My mind says "geeze if they knew I was writing this right now, they would think I was so weird.
But I know I have to write in it because through applying the skills in the program, I keep having "aha moments" and new realizations all the time, and I know I need to write them down. I feel like I have a lot in my mind that needs out, but I still struggle with the "inner editor."
Has anyone else had this struggle?
Thanks for reading :p