Stress Center Peer Support

ok.. so a friend has told me about the program and this site. He has suggested that I post things about how i feel. Honestly im scared. Ive been diagnosed with severe anxiety and bipolar.i guess i just want to get out some emotion that leaves me feeling worthless, ashamed, and out of control. I feel so alone and im not but it seems that i feel that im not good enough for the people that i love the most in my life. i fear that i will lose those people to something better. its not a matter of "if" but "when". i hate feeling this way but cant stop thinking it. many people do not take the word anxiety seriously enough. It has stopped me a lot in life. It has stopped me from going places and doing things that I enjoy. It has made me lose friends.. some that didnt understand or just didnt know. I just want to explain to some friends who thought i was ignoring them that it was never my intentions. i just got scared because if i miss one phone call then im scared to answer the next or if i dont reply to one message im too scared to read the others that people have left me. Paranoia and worry are two things that have consumed my thoughts and life. I dont want to seem like i am complaining. I have been provided with great family friends and a good life but dealing with this wont let me enjoy the things that i have been blessed with. I just dont want to feel this feeling anymore. I feel like if i do the program it would be a waste because i think that it wouldnt benefit me. I really dont know what to do to make myself feel better. Medicine only made my anxiety worse and made me seem "zombie-like" to my family and friends.

Hey Amanda how are you?? for what i read you dont sound very good =( and i am sorry i finished the program, almost 3 months ago, like you i suffer from anxiaty still do, for me is very hard to drive, but everyday i get better and better, the same thing with people at work some dont understand but i think you shouold try the program because Amanda it works!!!! but u have to be willing to put effort to it, and dont change anythingfrom yourself, people have to like you the way you are, we are not crazy! we are just special people with special gift! i dont know if u are catholic or not, but for me church God!! has helped me everyday he does, because no body, no body likes to be feelings anxious i hate it too Amanda, everyday is a struggle but i know that at the end of my day i am ok and i will be ok,!!! dot stop going to places because we just make our world smaller and smaller!! so be patient very very very patient!! and dont worry i too, stop going to places and going out! dont do it!!! face your fears!! look them in the face and say i am in control not you!! best of luck!!! dulce

I feel like if i do the program it would be a waste because i think that it wouldnt benefit me.

Hi Amanda,

I may be bi-polar also. Don't know. What I have seen is that clinical studies have proven the effectiveness of cognitive behavior therapy [CBT] even for people who are bi-polar. The StressCenter.com program is based upon CBT.

What you said may seem like already proven fact, but reality is that you don't know if it would benefit you or not until you actually go through the program and do the work. Until then your statement has no validity. It's an assumption, a very bad one, in my opinion. What do you have to lose?