Posted: Sun Apr 06, 2008 1:06 pm
So, I had debated whether or not I should post about my day. Never like to be selfish or self-centered like my step-mother use to accuse me of, but then I was reading NBGuy's post and thought I should put a good message up here about my day and not breaking down.
I had a great Saturday w/o much anxiety, though being on call for work I kept anticipating a bad weekend of phone calls because the last couple of months that is how work has been for all of us on-call guys. So, that comes and goes and I have a good day with the kids (and wife).
We started the day with the little league parade and then from there we did a bunch of things, including playing outside. It was a great day.
At 1am (Sunday morning) I got a work call, that took about 5 minutes and I was up for a bit.
I went to bed around 2am and then got a call from my brother's cell phone around 5am.
It was my sister and she was asking me about how the cell phone company could or could not track phones since she said she got robbed at gun point and the guy took her and her friends cell phones.
My sister is 19 and HOLY COW I was thinking that she is so lucky. I mean, what kept him from doing something more terrible.
My sister goes to college in the same state that my younger brother lives in (thank god) as at least she had someone to be with after an event like that.
So, we spoke for a bit, she assured me she was alright and I then went back to bed.
Woke up a little later with the double interruptions to my sleep and when I made myself breakfast I had my chest tightness, etc and felt that I might have a panic attack.
I spoke to my oldest son (age 6), eating breakfast, and trying to read the paper.
I acknowledged that I might have a panic attack and decided not to take a pill.
I have since made it all day and have done well. Still feel a little tense, but even my wife acknowledged that what my sister went through likely could be playing havoc on my brain.
I know this is long, but overall I thought it was a good day as i was able to accept what might happen and push through it.
In the end, it was a great day.
gotta run, kids are barking!!!
I had a great Saturday w/o much anxiety, though being on call for work I kept anticipating a bad weekend of phone calls because the last couple of months that is how work has been for all of us on-call guys. So, that comes and goes and I have a good day with the kids (and wife).
We started the day with the little league parade and then from there we did a bunch of things, including playing outside. It was a great day.
At 1am (Sunday morning) I got a work call, that took about 5 minutes and I was up for a bit.
I went to bed around 2am and then got a call from my brother's cell phone around 5am.
It was my sister and she was asking me about how the cell phone company could or could not track phones since she said she got robbed at gun point and the guy took her and her friends cell phones.
My sister is 19 and HOLY COW I was thinking that she is so lucky. I mean, what kept him from doing something more terrible.
My sister goes to college in the same state that my younger brother lives in (thank god) as at least she had someone to be with after an event like that.
So, we spoke for a bit, she assured me she was alright and I then went back to bed.
Woke up a little later with the double interruptions to my sleep and when I made myself breakfast I had my chest tightness, etc and felt that I might have a panic attack.
I spoke to my oldest son (age 6), eating breakfast, and trying to read the paper.
I acknowledged that I might have a panic attack and decided not to take a pill.
I have since made it all day and have done well. Still feel a little tense, but even my wife acknowledged that what my sister went through likely could be playing havoc on my brain.
I know this is long, but overall I thought it was a good day as i was able to accept what might happen and push through it.
In the end, it was a great day.
gotta run, kids are barking!!!
considering the interuptions. After feeling like your not normal for so long, it makes you appreciate things like watching a parade and playing outside with the kids. Good for you!! And remember YOU are in control, anxiety is not.