Stress Center Peer Support

I am sort of new... sort of not. I ordered this program several years ago. I was so excited to get it and I took it out and looked at it. I did watch video that came with it... but then I froze. I have done nothing more than "think" about someday moving on and actually playing or doing the Cds.
Lately, I have been sick and tired of being sick and tired, depressed, anxiety... you know what I mean! So... I decided I have to do SOMETHING! But I feel as though I am standing in quicksand and all of the resources (help, etc...) are just out of my reach. In my heart, I know this program is what I need to "move" on with my life. So, why cant I just play the Cds? I know that the "quicksand" I am standing in is of my own making. I am the one holding me back.

There are so many things I WANT to do, and things I WANT to change in my life. But in my mind, I keep thinking tomorrow... I will get started tomorrow. We all know... tomorrow will never be NOW. I have wasted so much time being afraid, depressed, stuck in this quicksand... I dont want another day to go by feeling this way... yet I still find it difficult to take the steps to move on. I dont want to be lazy anymore. I know that motivation follows action... now if I can just take enough action to get motivated.

I dont have anyone (face to face) to talk to about this and I feel as if I am a huge ball of anxiety but I am one stuffed feeling away from exploding.

Hi Daisyjane,

I know how you feel to some extent. I got the program in Sept. and got stuck along the way. I'm on session 7 and though I found it to be very good and especially inspiring, I just got stuck and wasn't doing what I was supposed to be doing. I reached out to someone who has completed the program and she has given me the encouragement I needed to resume my journey toward peace and contentment. She reminded me how strong we are- those of us w/ anxiety and depression, and how wonderful it will be when we are able to put these tools to use that we have gained through this program. And she has been through some amazingly difficult times, yet she was there in my time of need to encourage me and let me know that she cared and would be happy to be my friend. And so I want to do the same for you. Let's start with the relaxation cd maybe twice each day but at least once a day. It really does help and with practice we'll be able to bring it to mind and calm ourselves and get back to living in the moment and able to really notice the wonders going on around us. though initially you will feel a bit more anxious when listening to the first few cds, it's omly because you identify with what you are hearing and not really into what you need to do to help alleviate your symptoms and that old negative thinking that makes us feel so sad, anxious , unmotivated, hopeless and even helpless. The truth is nobody can help us more than ourselves and with the program and the good friends we make here we can realize that and gain both the confidence and the tools and knowledge to begin to feel better and live happier calmer lives, come what may. You can do this ,Daisyjane and so can I! We just need to remind ourselves how much we want a better life- probably on a daily basis, and set aside a block of time each day to do this for ourselves. Let's get started,ok? Let me know how you are doing either here or by personal message. Maybe we can help each other to get going and stay with this!

Hope to hear from you soon!

Your new friend,
Gale

Daisyjane, you are not alone. I keep having a hard time making time to listen to the cd's or to get on this forum. Out of an extreme desire to get better, I am forcing myself, sometimes late at night to do what I need to do even if it is only one thing or not even a whole cd. Each little bit is great as I hear it and/or read it, but it is still hard to keep moving. For me it is using positive self talk over and over to talk myself into doing it. Let's work together with Gale D and many others to keep going and to eventually heal and then to help others as I see many on here doing. Sometimes I have to write my positive talk to actually see it and believe it enough to get started.

Hi DaisyJane and sandrakay, I can so relate to what you say about being stuck in quicksand. It is a terrible frustrating feeling. Tonight I had to force myself to get in the shower, was very relieved when it was done although it wears me out! Still loads of things to do, but for today the shower was the big one! I am up to session 9 in the program but find I am stuck on that - so hard to get motivated to continue. Can't write anymore, too tired!
Sincerely,
Joy