Stress Center Peer Support

Hi everyone!!!
I am 20 years old and in my 3rd year of college I was diagnosed with clinical depression about 3 months ago and have had anxiety pretty much my whole life but not until recently have I been soooooo terrified of it! Dying hurting myself or someone else! I am on anti depressants but sometimes I still feel like I fall into this deep dark whole of depression and feel so terrified and hopeless I feel like the world has no point or I have no point that why do ppl do this or that its so pointless I can't eat or sleep because my thoughts of pointlessness overcome me and I feel so afraid of life! I don't wanna die I don't wanna live sometimes cuz its like what is the point??? I really need some help!!!! Any advice at all?

ash i kno how u feel its hard i kno it is but u have to fight for the guidence u need fight for happiness ur mind is makin u think bad thoughts but u can change it around go exercise it takes anger out and sadness. keep thinking good thoughts over the bad ones like im here on earth for a reason and imma live to find out what it is all this feelin down and sad and not wanting to live is gonna go away im not gonna let it take control over me. im gona stay happy and prove this depression it has no control. i beleive in u ash u can do it i had to its hard good luck and im here to talk

Thank you so much julia for your advice I am gonna try to tell myself that each day I mean I do tell myself you do this cuz its fun but then I'm like no its not its pointless! I want those thoughts to just go away I want to enjoy life see the purpose or just live in peace! I never used to think this way until about 3 months ago I don't know what happened to me or how I let myself get to this point I just pray I can be me again and fully recover!!! Did you feel any of these things or thoughts? Or are you/were you depressed?

yes i do have those thoughts i do have depression but not as bad as anxiety but i still always feel as if i die things would be better cuz i wouoldnt think like i do now. but im so scared of death too. it crazy and mine started a few months back also its like a fast transition u go through and it sucks. i wish there were no such thing and everybody was normal but its not like that. we all have obsticles to get over and me n u both and many other have this one and u have to have like 50 foot legs to jump this hurdle but evenually u will have em and u will be over it. but ill pray for u as well as me and everyone else we all need anything we can get and to have people to talk to helps alot.

It really does help!!! And thank you for the prayers I strongly believe in prayer! And yes this is a BIG obstacle in our lives and will take time to and effort to fix but I cannot wait for the results this program is going to bring to us! Everything happens for a reason! This reason I cannot put together why but I guess in the end we will understand! We can get through this together! I am on my first week now finishing session one! What session are you on?

ashyp,
I too am going through what you are.I fell into a hole of anxiety/depression after i had a wreck about 2 months ago.I am here to tell you that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.I have slowly gotten better each day thanks to god, lucinda's program, and a low dose of celexa.I felt really bad about 5 weeks ago but today i feel way better.I am starting to see that there is a point to life and i'm starting to see my purpose.I still have a small flare-up every now and then but nothing like before.You will get over this.Just think positive,smile,and laugh a lot.God bless you.

i havent got it yet i have no bank accoutn or anything and no money but i cant wait till i can get it

Hi All!

I can't say that I ever had clinical depression however, I had extreme anxiety which made me feel depressed and thoughts like "what if I died?" came in.
But I can sit here and tell you that I am recovered!
I owe it all to this program, this website, and the people who have been there with me to help me through this (friends on here, family, and my sweet loving boyfriend).
The best advice I can give is, get the program if you don't have it and really work it. DO it once, then take a break for a month or so and do it again. I did the program 3 or 4 times. It wasn't that it never worked and I had to repeat it, it was that I got more and more out of it each time.
Anxiety comes back from time to time, or old behaivors and thoughts will want to pop back up, but then I just remond myself that I don't do that anymore and it simply fades away. That my friend to me, is recovery!
I had every scary thought known to man: suicide (all the time but never was suicidal), homicide, what if this what if that?, but you know I rarely thought, what if I get over this and can help others one day?.
I should have because look where I am now.
I also just got back from Cancun with my boyfiend for 6 days! It was amazing. Probably the best vacation yet. Flying first class the way there by myself was fantastic! Very peaceful coming and going. Read books, relaxed, ran, drank, etc.
I live with my boyfriend and my dog in a cute little house in a metro detroit downtown area! Life is good!!
Keep it up and never ever doubt your abilities to get over this! Everyone has it on them.
If I did it you can too!

Thank you all for your advice,support, and uplifting comments! I believe that I am going to get better I really do its sometimes that I just let the negative thoughts overcome me! I can't wait till I learn to not let them and be happy and normal again!