Posted: Tue Sep 01, 2009 9:23 am
It's been two months now since I finished the program and I have to admit, when I finished I had relapses and doubts that it actually worked, but I guess for me you could say the program is like an implant or vaccine that works over time and becomes more and more powerful. I suppose like steering a ship, to use another analogy, you can't turn around in little time. It takes much longer to make that tremendous shift. So I want to share with everyone just how things have improved for me because when I was going through the program I kept thinking to myself, wondering how this huge change was going to begin to take effect. Now I see.
Now I see how my expectations have become adjusted slightly. I don't expect everything to be done at once or perfectly. I respect things take time and take their own weird course sometimes. I can let that go now. I also see that I was also justified in feeling terribly stressed because life threw me some incredibly tough challenges. I can appreciate that and I even respect myself now for what I endured. Anyone would have struggled in my situation, I don't care how calm they are.
I also see that I'm aware of negative thinking and although I can't stop it completely, I keep myself from going off the deep end compared to before. I get slightly upset, but I realize most things that are anxiety producing just are not worth caring about because as long as I put all my effort into solving problems I know things work themselves out.
I get things done now. I set goals, even big ones, and go about accomplishing them patiently one step at a time. This program also made me realize how bad my time management skills were. Now I schedule in time to relax because I know how important that is. I know if I lose my temper, I get nothing done, it takes so long to recover and it is so painful. So I schedule in fun time and I don't do more, ever do more than I know I can handle. And when those racing thoughts come, I drop everything and say who cares? I realize it is never that important to ruin my state of mind.
I plan to do the program over one more time, but now I understand that it takes so long for your brain to incorporate these ideas into daily life, but it does. I can't imagine forgetting what I have learned.
Now I see how my expectations have become adjusted slightly. I don't expect everything to be done at once or perfectly. I respect things take time and take their own weird course sometimes. I can let that go now. I also see that I was also justified in feeling terribly stressed because life threw me some incredibly tough challenges. I can appreciate that and I even respect myself now for what I endured. Anyone would have struggled in my situation, I don't care how calm they are.
I also see that I'm aware of negative thinking and although I can't stop it completely, I keep myself from going off the deep end compared to before. I get slightly upset, but I realize most things that are anxiety producing just are not worth caring about because as long as I put all my effort into solving problems I know things work themselves out.
I get things done now. I set goals, even big ones, and go about accomplishing them patiently one step at a time. This program also made me realize how bad my time management skills were. Now I schedule in time to relax because I know how important that is. I know if I lose my temper, I get nothing done, it takes so long to recover and it is so painful. So I schedule in fun time and I don't do more, ever do more than I know I can handle. And when those racing thoughts come, I drop everything and say who cares? I realize it is never that important to ruin my state of mind.
I plan to do the program over one more time, but now I understand that it takes so long for your brain to incorporate these ideas into daily life, but it does. I can't imagine forgetting what I have learned.
