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I am new here ...i have had the box nicely put away and still sealed from when it came in the mail 3 years ago...

my husband who i love and adore and have been with for over 11 years has moved out... i asked him to leave a few months ago due to the constant very and emotional abuse i felt he was putting me through...i know i am extra sensitive and that may be a part of it.... now he is thinking he may not want to come back...i feel so sick and scared and i have not been able to sleep though i am tired sooo tired all day...
also due to my severe panic attacks and depression i have not worked in a couple of years...i still have made money in investments and real estate but without him i will have no monthly income...

how can i be ok alone when i have panic attacks...i need strength so baldy now...
i am being so pathetic to him calling emailing begging him and telling him i will do and be everything that he wants and he is being more demanding and meaner...i am so so scared

Hello iamtara-

I'm sorry for your pain right now.

Can you guys go to counseling at all? If you asked him to leave, it must have been for a reason. You stated that it was for emotional abuse. When he was gone for a few months, how did you do?

I can see where you would be scared because before you felt in control in asking him to leave, but now you feel out of control because he is deciding that he wants to be gone.

I don't have any experience with this, but will pray for you guys to get healthy in your relationship and for you to open the box and get going. You will feel better when you take additional steps to take care of you-- no matter how this all turns out. You don't need to beg and promise that you will be someone that you are not. Be yourself and be fulfilled instead. You may have to go thru a dark patch now, but being true to yourself is more peaceful than wearing a mask.

I am so glad I going this post. I have been having the same problem. I am deathly afraid of eating food. I have not been to an allergist but I want to go to one. I am getting really sick of eating only unseasoned hamburger or steak, cheese, oatmeal and bread. Really that is basically what my diet consists of. Sometimes I am paralyzed by it. Even the foods I have tested and found to be safe are still scary.
I asked my family doctor to order the blood test that they have now for allergy testing but he wouldn't order it. He said I should go to the allergist. Which I guess I will need to do.
I have never had an allergy to food before so it is really getting annoying that this is what I fear now. It happened right before the holidays! The best food ever!!!
For all of us out there with this problem I just pray that we get through it. I have found someone from nomorepanic.co.uk with this problem and she is on the recovering end. So I know there is hope and someday we can eat again!!!!