Stress Center Peer Support

hey everyone!!

Its been a long while..Ive been so caught up with so many things lately. I have been planning my wedding which is in a month and a half..also between that I have been going on MULTIPLE job interviews (i finally found a "decent" place) which I start tomorrow. Also I have been workinbg with a trainer so i look good for m y wedding its a 5 day a week kick butt workout(ive lost 20 lbs already!!!)

So all these things seem fantastic(which they are) but I just feel SO SO SO stressed!!! Im exicited about my wedding I just feel like I am pushing myself so hard, everyday there is something to do....whether its meeting with the hall..the church..ordering favors..invitations...dress fitting...honey moon planning....i know this should be a happy time but Im scared im going to over whelm myself and slip back into anxiety again. (my big fear) I know I have different skills now and everything and I know how to relax when I know Im tired..but there are some days where I dont even have enough time to go potty let alone breathe!!

Also I have been interviewing for jobs for over a month..which we ALL know right now is not easy...either the places are great and I dont get hired..or the places are shady and crappy and I get the job....its been a rollercoaster trying to find a decent place to work. Finally I found thisd place...but im still scared!! i want it to work out...im just scared to get into my career again ( Im a hairdresser and its been over 2 years since I worked ina real salon)...

Finally I have been trying to feel and look good for my wedding day..I feelgreat so far..but i wantmore!! I want to look more than ok..thats my problem...if I dont see good results to fast i get discouraged...Ive been sooo negative lately.. I ve been meanto people(especilly kmy fiance) ive been crabby..just down on myself

I soo deperately want my life back that was pre anxiety...I want that good job..i want that good body...i just want it all too quickly and if I take a miss step I hate myself for it...

I dont know what to do..is it normal to feel this way?? i dont want my anxiety to come back..im nervous it will...but ive been trying really hard to use my skills..and try to remind myself to not take life so seriously....

thanks all for listening to me..I really needed to vent!!! I havent gotten to talk to anyone besides family and peoplethat want my money loll

<<3333 Dena

You are understandably facing two major life changes that would cause cause excitement,anxiousness, and a lot of stress. Remember, this is your special day! We live in a culture where there is too much focus on the ceremony, the dress, the rings, the cake, the photograph's and not the couple. Things will fall into place and relax - one day you will look back on this and enjoy the memories

Just reading your post tired me out! LOL

You need to set aside a half hour a day to relax. You gotta get some in with all of that running around. I know its difficult, but you'll thank yourself for it.