Stress Center Peer Support

I had a baby 9 months ago. In the past I've struggled with issues with anxiety and depression. I've fallen into a funk. Its not that I am depressed really, more that I am so focused on every one else doing everything wrong! My co-workers are obviously talking bad about me. My significant other surely is too. People don't really like me....on and on. Obviously the negativity goes even deeper than that but I've just been a funk.

I know when we do this we are gaining something from it but gawd what can I get from this? I am just feeling so negative about everyone. I mean even if coworkers DON'T like me what does it matter??

When it comes to my daughter I always feel like friends and family are judging my every little move.

In the end, after ranting and raving and pointing the finger at others I know its me. But how do I take the steps to get back on track? I want to be more positive for myself and my daughter.

I don't want her to grow up listening to mommy complaining about every person in the 50 mile radius. And how they have done something to wrong me!! UGH.

I'm not sure either what the gain would be but ...it is true...so what if certain people don't like you? Not everyone has to like us...I've pretty much come to the conclusion ....mind you a heartbreaking one at first...that the majority probably don't like me. I cut against the grain (I'm a big kid and I like to play with toys etc)...i'm going to be 27 in a few days. But when it comes down to it it's who i am and i see nothing wrong with that. A psychologist I saw actaully saw nothing wrong with it...i'll never get over that...but my family saw me with a Tinker Bell doll one day and my grandma asked my mom if something was wrong with me.

My dad berated me heavily about the childhood stuff....we're no longer talking (not because of childhood stuff but because he made up lies about me behind my back).

Cope with the idea not everyone likes everyone else. But live for yourself. And perhaps if your significant other is...take them aside and be assertive...ask calmly and cooly why they do what they do?