Stress Center Peer Support

I have an appt with my counselor for the first time in years on Thursday, which is good. BUT...in the meantime...

I feel helpless. I hate my job. They have progressively added responsibility to my desk for stuff I am not trained to do, yet refuse to provide training. I do desktop publishing and they are asking me, no TELLING me, to develop marketing plans. ??? Anyway, as much as I tell them I am not trained, etc., they won't listen, AND to top it off, they've stopped giving raises (or have "selectively" done so) so there's not even any incentive to learn if I wanted to.

I want to quit, but with the economy, I feel bound and it's adding to my overall anxiety. I realize that the responsiblity of everything lately is what's the cause of my bad anxiety episode I'm going through.

Any words of wisdom?? I just feel totally trapped.

Well, first of all, I’m happy to hear that you’ve made an appointment with your counselor.

I’m sorry that your job is causing so much stress. I can understand why you’d be feeling that way when they’re telling you to do things you don’t know how to do! When you say “they” refuse to provide training, are you referring to your boss? Is he or she made of stone? Can they not see that you are stressed out and struggling?

I would say that no matter what other’s expectations of you are, remember that you are only one person and can only do so much. You can only do what you can do.

Your expensive program has only made my life more depressing.
The advertisement sounded so wonderful and happy and free I even ordered it while unemployed. I was getting a small training salary while trying to learn car sales, It was my birthday month, I had just gotten my 3rd divorce settlement and I was drinking. I soon had to pay that training salary back and could not sell cars because of my depression. I quickly forgot about your program sitting under my disconnected TV. When I got your deliquent bill letter it was alreay too late to return it you said. you made arrangements to pay it off on my credit card. I also got a payday loan when I got a low paying security guard job in Jan. I had to change bank accounts to even pay my rent (the credit card was with that bank). The payday loan is in collection and along with yours I will never get ahead.
I now realize it is too late for your program anyway. 57 yr old already ruined my life and kids with my depression and anger. All I am living for is to help my 83 yrold Mother who lives in this same part of town.
Is there anyway you can take the program DVDs back and forgive some of the dept??
I tried to call, your card says Personalized coaching from 9am to 10pm EST. Then the recording now says 9am to 5pm.

If I had not hocked my shotgun I would have an answer to everyones deliquent notices. Will God send me to hell for suicide??