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I had to go for an ultrasound (due to spotting before my period that's been going on for about three years now...)yesterday and at first I felt alright (probably because it was over!) but now anxiety is creeping its way back into me and I woke up this morning feeling really ansy. I'm really scared to get my test results back. They should be in in about a week or at least that's what the technician told me.

I'm freaked out because when the technician pushed against my right ovary she told me that there might be some pressure and truly it was a little more uncomfortable. But when she did the same thing on the left side I didn't feel any discomfort. Which leads me to believe that something is wrong with my right ovary. On top of that she pushed against a part of my uterus and asked if it was pressure or tender. This really freaked me out bc it kinda felt like pressure but was uncomfortable so AGAIN I'm led to believe that something is seriously wrong with me.

I just feel like I have this impending doom (like a dark cloud) hanging over me and am freaking out that something awful is going to happen to me and I won't make it to my wedding this summer (which is in three months). I'm so scared of the big "C" and terrified they will tell me I have it when they call next week. I feel sick about this!

Hi Chantel-

I would think that if there was something BAD, they would call you before a week passed.

And-- there are reasons why you may spot before periods other than CA.

I also freak about health issues, so I don't want to PooPoo you at all.
When your icky voice says "what if..." can you write down an answer to the question to refute your adrenaline squirting?

Ex. What if I have cancer?

Well- I went in for help because I was having spotting at unexpected times. The MD and technician and radiologist are trying to pinpoint a possible cause to help me out so I can feel better. Spending my time fretting about the results is not going to change the results. I will enjoy my moment now, and when I find out results from the medical people, I will handle it at that time. Pre-fretting is ruining my today and isn't getting me any benefits.

Then I would do my deep breathing or relaxation tape, etc. and get busy with my day. When The Voice pipes in again, write down your answer to her again. Pretty soon, you will be believing your rational voice and getting bored with the drama, and you won't go there so much.
Really--

I'll say a prayer for your health.
And congratulations on the upcoming marriage.

Thanks for your rational and very helpful reply newrunner. It was advice I was looking for and I have been applying to my situation ever since I read your comment yesterday.

Miraculously, it's helping. So thank you.