Posted: Sun Nov 29, 2009 4:33 am
I'm now about 99% sure that most of my stresses come from work. I've been working in a business now for 21 years. 21 years of stress is about to come to a stop. I'm sick and tired of wasting a perfectly good day on worry. I've done that for 21 years and possibly even earlier than that. My line of work is either feast of famine. When the work comes in, they take waaaaaaay too much and the workers suffer for it.
I've made a decision to go outside today and enjoy the sun. We haven't seen the sun here in about a week. I haven't seen the sun in about 21 years.
Sometimes I get the shakes on a Sunday, but I'm working on it. I'm working on it every day. When I wake up some mornings, I'm afraid. I'm afraid that I'm going to get fired and I'm afraid that I'll be at the same job until I finally retire. The only one whose going to make a change for me is me. I need to follow my heart starting now. I don't deserve to be treated the way I am and I'm sick of it. My friends and family have had to sit and listen to me complain for yeeeeears (That's why I'm glad these message boards exist) LOL.
Today, my life is going to change for the better. It's going to be stressful at first, but I know that some stress and fear today will make for an awesome rest of my life.
............I'm so afraid.
I've made a decision to go outside today and enjoy the sun. We haven't seen the sun here in about a week. I haven't seen the sun in about 21 years.
Sometimes I get the shakes on a Sunday, but I'm working on it. I'm working on it every day. When I wake up some mornings, I'm afraid. I'm afraid that I'm going to get fired and I'm afraid that I'll be at the same job until I finally retire. The only one whose going to make a change for me is me. I need to follow my heart starting now. I don't deserve to be treated the way I am and I'm sick of it. My friends and family have had to sit and listen to me complain for yeeeeears (That's why I'm glad these message boards exist) LOL.
Today, my life is going to change for the better. It's going to be stressful at first, but I know that some stress and fear today will make for an awesome rest of my life.
............I'm so afraid.