Posted: Mon Mar 30, 2009 9:35 am
Today I start my 4th week and I would love for someone to tell me that they felt miserable but then felt better.
I started with listening to the session in a relaxing place in front of a fire early this a.m. and many things struck me for the first time as far as my own expectations. Later, what felt like out of the blue, I got impatient with my son and carried on like a lunatic, felt ashamed all day because of it and now I can't even write anything down or listen to anything because I'm so pissed off and feel like none of this will work anyway.....(I'm not exactly in my HAPPY PLACE....)
Please tell me this is a hurdle. My moods are so much work and I'm thinking of going back on my ADD medication which of course is a stimulant but really seemed to help me a lot.
Any takers on this one? I'm going to get a beer while I wait.....sorry for the bad attitude but at least I'm being honest...
I started with listening to the session in a relaxing place in front of a fire early this a.m. and many things struck me for the first time as far as my own expectations. Later, what felt like out of the blue, I got impatient with my son and carried on like a lunatic, felt ashamed all day because of it and now I can't even write anything down or listen to anything because I'm so pissed off and feel like none of this will work anyway.....(I'm not exactly in my HAPPY PLACE....)
Please tell me this is a hurdle. My moods are so much work and I'm thinking of going back on my ADD medication which of course is a stimulant but really seemed to help me a lot.
Any takers on this one? I'm going to get a beer while I wait.....sorry for the bad attitude but at least I'm being honest...