Stress Center Peer Support

Hello all and thank you for reading...
I have suffered from anxiety and panic attacks for 14 years. I am trying to get help myself by forgiving myself and others. The big one for me is my mother. She was a alcohlic for many years and abused me physically and mentally. I am now 31 years old and I have tried to get that daughter/mother relationship but I never succeed. Just recently we had a huge blow out and I havent spoken to her in over a month and I dont have the urge to ever speak to her....she hurt me for the last time. What I would like to know is should I make a mends with her? The reason I ask this is because im moving to Ga in June. I may answer my own question here but not sure. I do have this feeling inside that I should just write her a letter explaining how I feel but im afraid that feeling is wanting to just fight with her. I dont know what to do...I do know that I want her love, support and approval...but she wont give it to me and I feel stuck with this anger inside from her.
Someone please help me...any input would be great.
Thank You

I would encourage you to seek out a manner of healing for yourself. Affirmation from those who brought us into the world is something we all want. However, for many of us affirmation evaded us due to varying cirmstances. Perhaps, right now you are unsure as to the next move with regard to your mother. This may be just the right time to concentrate on you. A book I found helpful is by John Bradshaw - The Family. Do take care