Posted: Mon Aug 03, 2009 3:59 am
I feel torn between paying rent or at least my share which I haven't in over a year and finding the job that will pay me full time. Its a drowning feeling to not have any money. My parents are always throwing in the life saver while I drown in debt and overdrafts.
This has kept me from feeling like a mature woman of twenty nine. I don't go out and mostly sit in with my boyfriend who works forty hours a week. He pays for everything and it isn't a good feeling for me to be the unhappy college grad with nothing to show for it.
Lucinda's CD's have given me more hope than I could get on my own and I've been able to face the world with her tools in practice. Mostly I have found my self reaching for new heights and strengthening present climbs.
I have two wonderful parents and a loving boyfriend who support me in my mentally challenged ways. I keep up the fight with good pride and honesty. I am tired but I continue to fill out job applications and sit through mind prodding interviews while anticipating the results.
I've picked up many new activities since the program from Lucinda like rock climbing, cycling, dance class, and taking hot bathes. Yet for the past ten years I've succumbed to understanding that there is no perfect career and that as Stanislavsky quoted-all that is under my control is my intention. And my intentions are to work honestly and to like everyone else use talent to become a writer and sculptor but to serve well with my skills and talent.
This has kept me from feeling like a mature woman of twenty nine. I don't go out and mostly sit in with my boyfriend who works forty hours a week. He pays for everything and it isn't a good feeling for me to be the unhappy college grad with nothing to show for it.
Lucinda's CD's have given me more hope than I could get on my own and I've been able to face the world with her tools in practice. Mostly I have found my self reaching for new heights and strengthening present climbs.
I have two wonderful parents and a loving boyfriend who support me in my mentally challenged ways. I keep up the fight with good pride and honesty. I am tired but I continue to fill out job applications and sit through mind prodding interviews while anticipating the results.
I've picked up many new activities since the program from Lucinda like rock climbing, cycling, dance class, and taking hot bathes. Yet for the past ten years I've succumbed to understanding that there is no perfect career and that as Stanislavsky quoted-all that is under my control is my intention. And my intentions are to work honestly and to like everyone else use talent to become a writer and sculptor but to serve well with my skills and talent.
